I told myself i cannot consume by all these thoughts.. But... But...
Yesterday Jun He tell me he accept Christ le.. So cool la.. I see how God has been working in this BROTHER since last year.. he told me he believe, but he just feel weird having a diff religion as his family.. then recently his sister accepted Christ, so he also accept Christ... And guess how did he recieve Jesus?? He said the sinners prayer by himself (with the Holy SPirit guiding him though)... Coz last year i share with him 4 spiritual law, then ask him to keep tht book, and then tell him he can say the prayer himself when he feel tht he is ready, and ask him to pray at home... HAha.. then he really say it by himself... haha... God is great!
Then my papa is starting to get closer and closer to God, yearning for God's words and to know Him more.. hehe... God is working in my papa...
So many things to give thanks to.. but i am so distracted...
Saturday, February 04, 2006
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Reflections
Haha... Nonsense... Wad reflections... just some thoughts
I was just telling God recently, that I am too consumed by things around me.. Then it is not good..
I want to watch the saturday movie, i want to get married.. Talking about married... Oh my... I really wanna get married so badly.. It is not about having a boyfriend, it is about having a husband to spent your life with, built a family, grow together, support each other... See, i am too consumed by all these thoughts... It is not good... If like tht hor, if i am just thinking about getting married, what about preaching for God???
I told my dear Father that I cannot get too consumed by these thoughts.. For about one week or so le, i guess this has to stop.. though i love man of God, but i have to love God the most!
shh... if you all see this hor, then see me too consume about these thoughts again must knock my head ok!! hee...
God i love You, and i love Ah Ma, and my family!!
I was just telling God recently, that I am too consumed by things around me.. Then it is not good..
I want to watch the saturday movie, i want to get married.. Talking about married... Oh my... I really wanna get married so badly.. It is not about having a boyfriend, it is about having a husband to spent your life with, built a family, grow together, support each other... See, i am too consumed by all these thoughts... It is not good... If like tht hor, if i am just thinking about getting married, what about preaching for God???
I told my dear Father that I cannot get too consumed by these thoughts.. For about one week or so le, i guess this has to stop.. though i love man of God, but i have to love God the most!
shh... if you all see this hor, then see me too consume about these thoughts again must knock my head ok!! hee...
God i love You, and i love Ah Ma, and my family!!
Monday, November 28, 2005
God created time
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, He has put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end." Ecclesiastes 3:11
God created time, and made everything beautiful in it.
1st: Time is created by God. God IS WHO HE IS even before time begin. He is not limited by time. The question "when?" deals with time, and since God created time, He is not limited by time, and the question "When did God first come about?" cannot stand.
So God created time and gives man the knowledge of time, but that's not all. He also placed in our hearts that although there is a "time", and we are limited by it, there is also an "eternity" where we are not going to be limited by time. So, after we've reached our time limit on earth, we are face with eternity.
The most important point is, although we know there's a "time" where we are limited, and an eternity we have to face, we are still NOT God! We cannot know what God has done from the beginning and even to the end. Our God is of a higher authority than us.
He gives us partial understanding of Him. He is God, the ONE who NEVER changes.
God created time, and made everything beautiful in it.
1st: Time is created by God. God IS WHO HE IS even before time begin. He is not limited by time. The question "when?" deals with time, and since God created time, He is not limited by time, and the question "When did God first come about?" cannot stand.
So God created time and gives man the knowledge of time, but that's not all. He also placed in our hearts that although there is a "time", and we are limited by it, there is also an "eternity" where we are not going to be limited by time. So, after we've reached our time limit on earth, we are face with eternity.
The most important point is, although we know there's a "time" where we are limited, and an eternity we have to face, we are still NOT God! We cannot know what God has done from the beginning and even to the end. Our God is of a higher authority than us.
He gives us partial understanding of Him. He is God, the ONE who NEVER changes.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Blue Eyes
i saw blue eyes again on the 15th Nov 10:11pm.. Think he is going home from work...
Hehe... This is the fourth time.. But the 1st time i seen him alone... He was alone and i was alone... haha...
Exams over... Dun wanna type le... hehe... Blue eyes!
Hehe... This is the fourth time.. But the 1st time i seen him alone... He was alone and i was alone... haha...
Exams over... Dun wanna type le... hehe... Blue eyes!
Thursday, November 03, 2005
情绪混乱
考试到了，照理我应该要好好念书，但总觉得心情很难集中，似乎被什么捆住似的。脑袋和心里怪怪的。也不知道发生什么事。心动了。。。对谁？不知道。或许是因为不想面对事实吧。不想喜欢他。明明知道不可以。既然决定了，又何必苦恼呢？有时就没办法。
还是喜欢蓝眼睛好。至少不会感到伤心，不会感到苦恼。偶尔还可以为他写诗。增添生活乐趣。
用华文写，是不想让太多人了结心里的感受。或许因为自己很少写网上日记，根本就很少人会来看。。。。哈哈。哈哈。
还是喜欢蓝眼睛好。至少不会感到伤心，不会感到苦恼。偶尔还可以为他写诗。增添生活乐趣。
用华文写，是不想让太多人了结心里的感受。或许因为自己很少写网上日记，根本就很少人会来看。。。。哈哈。哈哈。
Monday, August 08, 2005
lalalala...
haha... haha... i so tired... i am at rach house... she lost my da xia... i like da xia... i love God... i like him... haha... like him... like him.. like him... like him...
but actually i really love God leh... He is so cool la... so so cool... God i love You... I love love You... hehe...
i very luan... very very tired.. i wanna watch da xia...
my heart hurts... but it does not hurt tht much when i give it to God...
ok God i give my heart to you k... You guard my heart ok...
My heart so pain... But not very pain le... God... You must teach me wad to do k... You must lead me... I know you will :)
ahhhhhhhhhhh............ why must there be guys? haha... so attractive...
i miss kai ge... i miss alvin lai... i miss so so many ppl... i am going to miss rachel... i am going to miss so so many ppl... oh and i miss mr adrian... and mr shi... haha... lalalalalalala...
english oral... haha...
but actually i really love God leh... He is so cool la... so so cool... God i love You... I love love You... hehe...
i very luan... very very tired.. i wanna watch da xia...
my heart hurts... but it does not hurt tht much when i give it to God...
ok God i give my heart to you k... You guard my heart ok...
My heart so pain... But not very pain le... God... You must teach me wad to do k... You must lead me... I know you will :)
ahhhhhhhhhhh............ why must there be guys? haha... so attractive...
i miss kai ge... i miss alvin lai... i miss so so many ppl... i am going to miss rachel... i am going to miss so so many ppl... oh and i miss mr adrian... and mr shi... haha... lalalalalalala...
english oral... haha...
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Very long never update le... Syf, exams... Over le... Must start preparing for O'levels..
Why am i updating today? Coz i really feel tht i need to keep my heart (shou xin) liao... After June hols prob going to have lots of changes... I think the one affecting me so far is guitar handover... I am going to miss the kids so so much... haha... (smoking) actually is miss lao xu... Ahhh... We went thru so much together la... haiz... sad case... it will never be the same again...
Hols going to have four c.lit tests... Also good la, a way to study and revise... I think Mr Yow very cute.. haha.. He quite nice la, i think if i listen to him i can do well for chemistry.. i am this kind of ppl... Mr Choo also quite cute... DUnno why also leh... like so crazy lorh... but nvm... maybe like tht i will do better in that few subjects... coz like tht their lessons i wun sleep mah...
aiyoh... i feel very very funny... strange inside... i think guitar is affecting me alot...
Why am i updating today? Coz i really feel tht i need to keep my heart (shou xin) liao... After June hols prob going to have lots of changes... I think the one affecting me so far is guitar handover... I am going to miss the kids so so much... haha... (smoking) actually is miss lao xu... Ahhh... We went thru so much together la... haiz... sad case... it will never be the same again...
Hols going to have four c.lit tests... Also good la, a way to study and revise... I think Mr Yow very cute.. haha.. He quite nice la, i think if i listen to him i can do well for chemistry.. i am this kind of ppl... Mr Choo also quite cute... DUnno why also leh... like so crazy lorh... but nvm... maybe like tht i will do better in that few subjects... coz like tht their lessons i wun sleep mah...
aiyoh... i feel very very funny... strange inside... i think guitar is affecting me alot...
Monday, March 28, 2005
What I learnt during Holy week
It was estimated that the money used in one single year on preparation of war can be used for a thousand plus years for mission works...
Combinations:
Without man and woman --- There was Adam
One man no woman --- There was Eve
Both man and woman --- You and I
Last combination, one woman no man --- Jesus!!
Cool rite... haha...
No matter how advance science is, how great the political powers can get, how powerful military weapons are, how rich you are...
3 things man can NEVER solve:
-Problem of sin
-Problem of sufferings, sorrow
-Problem of death
Psalms 118:24
The hymm "This is the day, this is the day that the Lord has made. That the Lord has made. I will rejoice, I will rejoice and be glad in it and be glad in it......."
Matt 26:30 "When they had sung a hymm, they went out to the Mount of Olives."
I heard Tang mu shi preached on good friday. He mentioned tht this is the 1st time it was recorded that Jesus sang a hymm.. I wonder if the other gospel books mentioned this part, but i only found it in Matthew... And Tang mu shi was saying tht the hymm tht they probably sang was Psalm 118:24, this is the day.
The one day that Jesus became the atonement for our sins. This one day will never be repeated. And after this day, we will be glad and rejoice.
The passover is the shadow of how Jesus is going to die for our sins... During Moses times, the angel pass over the door of the iraelites with the lamb's blood. This symbolises Jesus's blood. Deliverance from sin, just like how Isrealites were delivered from Egypt.
That one day, the wrath of God will be upon Jesus when our sins are on Him. No one colud comfort Jesus as even the comfortor's sin will be upon Jesus. Matt 27:46 "About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?" - which means, "My God, my God,why have You forsaken me?"
That was how much Jesus suffered...
We cannot completely understand, but at least we can have correct partial understandings. Ephesians 3:18 "may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,"
1 John 3:16 "This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers."
The gist of this verse is Christ's sacrifice.
Do we really love God? Do we really know how to love God? If we never sacrifice myself to accomplish others, I have not love. So it is important that Jesus is willing to suffer for me.
Good Friday is important. It allows us to understand(try to), ponder upon Jesus's sufferings.
Suffering of Christ is important.
In the suffering of Christ, not only do we know the love of God, we also establish our love for God, and we follow His example...
HOWEVER!!! The important part is Jesus ROSE from the dead... HE IS ALIVE!!! haha... that is the part tht makes Him so different... That is the part that created an impact in people's lives... I think the disciple would have just went back to their normal lives if they din see Jesus resurrect. The resurrection itself changed the diciples. They recieved the power of the Holy Spirit. And they just go!!! Go and do the will of the Father!!! :)
Combinations:
Without man and woman --- There was Adam
One man no woman --- There was Eve
Both man and woman --- You and I
Last combination, one woman no man --- Jesus!!
Cool rite... haha...
No matter how advance science is, how great the political powers can get, how powerful military weapons are, how rich you are...
3 things man can NEVER solve:
-Problem of sin
-Problem of sufferings, sorrow
-Problem of death
Psalms 118:24
The hymm "This is the day, this is the day that the Lord has made. That the Lord has made. I will rejoice, I will rejoice and be glad in it and be glad in it......."
Matt 26:30 "When they had sung a hymm, they went out to the Mount of Olives."
I heard Tang mu shi preached on good friday. He mentioned tht this is the 1st time it was recorded that Jesus sang a hymm.. I wonder if the other gospel books mentioned this part, but i only found it in Matthew... And Tang mu shi was saying tht the hymm tht they probably sang was Psalm 118:24, this is the day.
The one day that Jesus became the atonement for our sins. This one day will never be repeated. And after this day, we will be glad and rejoice.
The passover is the shadow of how Jesus is going to die for our sins... During Moses times, the angel pass over the door of the iraelites with the lamb's blood. This symbolises Jesus's blood. Deliverance from sin, just like how Isrealites were delivered from Egypt.
That one day, the wrath of God will be upon Jesus when our sins are on Him. No one colud comfort Jesus as even the comfortor's sin will be upon Jesus. Matt 27:46 "About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?" - which means, "My God, my God,why have You forsaken me?"
That was how much Jesus suffered...
We cannot completely understand, but at least we can have correct partial understandings. Ephesians 3:18 "may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,"
1 John 3:16 "This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers."
The gist of this verse is Christ's sacrifice.
Do we really love God? Do we really know how to love God? If we never sacrifice myself to accomplish others, I have not love. So it is important that Jesus is willing to suffer for me.
Good Friday is important. It allows us to understand(try to), ponder upon Jesus's sufferings.
Suffering of Christ is important.
In the suffering of Christ, not only do we know the love of God, we also establish our love for God, and we follow His example...
HOWEVER!!! The important part is Jesus ROSE from the dead... HE IS ALIVE!!! haha... that is the part tht makes Him so different... That is the part that created an impact in people's lives... I think the disciple would have just went back to their normal lives if they din see Jesus resurrect. The resurrection itself changed the diciples. They recieved the power of the Holy Spirit. And they just go!!! Go and do the will of the Father!!! :)
Sunday, March 06, 2005
Aeroplane Analogy
I know an airline company, they are going to give free air tickets one day... You have to get a pass from them... And on the day that they are going to give the tickets, just produce the pass... How do you get the pass? Just believe that they are going to give away the air tickets and you will get the pass... It will entitle you to a free air ticket to any place you wanna go... Everyone who has the pass gets a free ticket? When are they giving it out? Once everyone has heard of this good news...
Ok, I'm going to tell this to all the people i know... after all the pass is unlimited, as long as they believe they will have the pass and they will get the free ticket. This is so exciting!
"Hey I've got something cool to tell you..." "No no... I am too busy too listen." Ok nevermind, he is too busy this time...
"Hey! There is this company giving away free air tickets........" "Yah right, go back to dreamland! There is no such thing" He din believe me...
20... 30... All of them din believe me...
"I've got something to tell you... It may seem unbelievable... But this company...." "REally?? HoW do i Get the pass?" "You believe? You've got it.... Go tell more people. The day is near :)"
"Attention to all! The day has come for Calvary Airways to give away our free air tickets! Those who have the pass, please come forward and collect your free air tickets! Thanks for trusting Calvary Airways! Enjoy Your trip:)"
"What! I dun have the pass!" "Huh? You mean there was really such a thing?" "I wanted to believe, but I had my doubts..." "You mean that was what you wanted to tell me? Oh my! Was i really that busy?"
It is my duty to tell you this good news... Whether you believe it or not is your choice... Yes it is just soo easy, believe and you get the pass to a place where you spent eternity with God! Is it so hard for people to do... In this analogy, what is at stake is just an air ticket... However in reality, it is our soul...
I will tell the world... Again and again... 1st time they dun believe me, i will try again... I've got the pass... And i know so much...
Hey... What do you all think about this analogy? Anyway to improve it? Or is it not good at all?
Ok, I'm going to tell this to all the people i know... after all the pass is unlimited, as long as they believe they will have the pass and they will get the free ticket. This is so exciting!
"Hey I've got something cool to tell you..." "No no... I am too busy too listen." Ok nevermind, he is too busy this time...
"Hey! There is this company giving away free air tickets........" "Yah right, go back to dreamland! There is no such thing" He din believe me...
20... 30... All of them din believe me...
"I've got something to tell you... It may seem unbelievable... But this company...." "REally?? HoW do i Get the pass?" "You believe? You've got it.... Go tell more people. The day is near :)"
"Attention to all! The day has come for Calvary Airways to give away our free air tickets! Those who have the pass, please come forward and collect your free air tickets! Thanks for trusting Calvary Airways! Enjoy Your trip:)"
"What! I dun have the pass!" "Huh? You mean there was really such a thing?" "I wanted to believe, but I had my doubts..." "You mean that was what you wanted to tell me? Oh my! Was i really that busy?"
It is my duty to tell you this good news... Whether you believe it or not is your choice... Yes it is just soo easy, believe and you get the pass to a place where you spent eternity with God! Is it so hard for people to do... In this analogy, what is at stake is just an air ticket... However in reality, it is our soul...
I will tell the world... Again and again... 1st time they dun believe me, i will try again... I've got the pass... And i know so much...
Hey... What do you all think about this analogy? Anyway to improve it? Or is it not good at all?
Sunday, January 09, 2005
worldly praise
So tired... Have been doing so many things for the whole week... Study, sweeping the classroom, guitar, and other stuffs... I never really cared if ppl know and appreciate wad I am doing... But... It doesn't means i dun mind being left out... Sometimes i will keep asking ppl to praise me... But someone said before tht worldly praise leads to pride... Yah, it may be true... But to me, i need to be sure tht wad i am doing is of satisfactory standard... So sometimes i was actually very encouraged when si kai ge or some other funny ppl tell me i did a great job in doing something... It motivates me to continue doing some things, and even do it better if i can... But i found out tht, if i rely too much on all these affirmation, one day when it stop, i will stop also... The thing is, sometimes i am just not very sure in wad position am i doing some things... Sounds very vague huh? But it is not very important...
I just realised today tht i must not care about whether ppl recognise wad i do, or realised wad i do... Wad is important is as i do all these things, my heart is focus on God... Wadeva it is, i know tht God sees it, He recognise it... Thts all tht mater... haha... So worldy praise wun affect me so much le... But i will still be very happy de....
I just realised today tht i must not care about whether ppl recognise wad i do, or realised wad i do... Wad is important is as i do all these things, my heart is focus on God... Wadeva it is, i know tht God sees it, He recognise it... Thts all tht mater... haha... So worldy praise wun affect me so much le... But i will still be very happy de....
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Pray
God... As the people suffer in eternal burning fire now, as the souls are lost... May Your mercy be upon those who are alive... May Your glory be magnified in this world... Father... I may not understand why all these are happening... Wars, terrorists, earthquakes... Are all these happening because we have forgot that the end is coming? Are all these happening because many have lost the urgency to spread the gospel? In America, in Iraq... We din care... But now it hit S.E Asia... God... May Your Holy Spirit fill Your church, Your children... May we spread Your word, the gospel... Like never before... May Your children rise up... May You use us... And all these, according to Your will, not ours... Father, it hurts... It hurts to see so many people dying without knowing You... It hurts to see people dying without accepting You... It hurts even more to see people alive and well rejecting Your Name... I dunno wad i can do Father... I really dunno... I wanna runaway... But i can't... I promised to be Your faithful servant... You have given me the passion of evangelising... You have place ideas into my head, my heart, my soul... But Father, i really dunno wad to do... I want to see You now... I want to fill Your presence... I dun wanna be a cry baby... I wanna be strong... To know what to do... You know how all these things can affect me... God... You know... And You know how tired i am... Father... May Your strength and wisdom be upon me... I need the strength to complete my homework... God, I wanna glorify Your name... I wanna be a good testimony... I need to be a good testimony... I wanna spread Your word... I wanna be strong, spritually... God... May Your comfort be upon these people... Even when many are not Your child yet... God, speake to them... Holy Spirit, work in their hearts... Provide them with what they need, not only the materials, but the love the need so badly... May the lost souls be saved... May they see Your power through the many events that is happening... In Jesus Name i pray... Amen!
The events... They affects me... So much... Izzit money that they need? Yes... They want it, they have to build their homes... But so what if they can live for another 10,50 years... When one day, they will not be reunited with God... When they finds out tht they need to face judgement... When they finds out tht they have been rejecting a God who have given them chances to know Him... It will be too late coz they will be suffering much more then what they are suffering now... Pray...
The events... They affects me... So much... Izzit money that they need? Yes... They want it, they have to build their homes... But so what if they can live for another 10,50 years... When one day, they will not be reunited with God... When they finds out tht they need to face judgement... When they finds out tht they have been rejecting a God who have given them chances to know Him... It will be too late coz they will be suffering much more then what they are suffering now... Pray...
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Christmas blessings...
Haha... Today is monday... So tired... I think i won't be able to finish my homework... But i din wanna make my teacher upset... So later i will do a little k...
Christmas just over... But my heart is still burning and burning... Hehe... I thank God for all the blessings i recieved... So nice... I got a book on depression... A candle with a verse one... A study Bible!!!!!! and 2 marshmallow cushion... So nice... I say i like tht nice nice cushion then my sisters give me... Ke Li and Rachel give me 1 pig... Wan Ling give me one dog... So exciting... Then i like the cards...
I like words of affirmation... In a way... Recently... Or this year... i change in a way... i dunno izzit becoz of the way i express myself... I was thinking do i seems to be too proud? Hey but actually i am not... As in... I say i li hai is because i know i not very li hai... I say i good because i not very good... Then in a way ppl laugh mah... Then deep inside i know tht i am not hao lian... But recently i felt tht it is not how i feels tht really matters all the time... Sometimes ppl may just interpret it differently... Haiz...
Tht day after the Christmas service i went to batam... Haha... Nothing much actually... But Nope... I went to a malay service on sunday... Suppose to go to an english one but then late le... so i say i was thinking why not just go see a malay service la... i mean i just wanna see see lorh... They have their service in a hotel ballroom... And guess wad... there are just so many malays there... the ballroom is almost filled... at least the seats la... then wow... haha... i dun understand wad they singing... but when the pastor preaching i sort of understood... i think tht is the power of God... haha... so cool...
So wonderful to see malays worshiping God... Hey... Is Jesus k... You know how cool it is not... I see how wonderful God is... Many times we live in sg, we just limit ourselves and God here... When we go out there... we see how when men have faith, God uses us to do so many things... We see indians, malays and the china ppl... they are all children of God... It all strikes me so much... You know i was thinking... Why are we still here when we accept Christ... Not beacause He wants us to love Him here, serve Him here, fellowship here... We can do these in heaven... Why? Why must we face trials... To mould us... For wad? Hello... It is to serve the non christians here... To witness to them... We need to be onward Christ soldiers... To fight the battle against sars... NO... Agains bird flu... NO... Against Satan... wad is sars? wad is bird flu? Death... Wad is satan? Eternal burning fire... God created me for a purpose... By grace i am saved... And i thank Him so much... Wad else can i ask for... But for His grace to be upon so many other lost souls around... Oh my...
AHh.... haha... I wanna witness for Him!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna obey!!!!!!!!!
Christmas just over... But my heart is still burning and burning... Hehe... I thank God for all the blessings i recieved... So nice... I got a book on depression... A candle with a verse one... A study Bible!!!!!! and 2 marshmallow cushion... So nice... I say i like tht nice nice cushion then my sisters give me... Ke Li and Rachel give me 1 pig... Wan Ling give me one dog... So exciting... Then i like the cards...
I like words of affirmation... In a way... Recently... Or this year... i change in a way... i dunno izzit becoz of the way i express myself... I was thinking do i seems to be too proud? Hey but actually i am not... As in... I say i li hai is because i know i not very li hai... I say i good because i not very good... Then in a way ppl laugh mah... Then deep inside i know tht i am not hao lian... But recently i felt tht it is not how i feels tht really matters all the time... Sometimes ppl may just interpret it differently... Haiz...
Tht day after the Christmas service i went to batam... Haha... Nothing much actually... But Nope... I went to a malay service on sunday... Suppose to go to an english one but then late le... so i say i was thinking why not just go see a malay service la... i mean i just wanna see see lorh... They have their service in a hotel ballroom... And guess wad... there are just so many malays there... the ballroom is almost filled... at least the seats la... then wow... haha... i dun understand wad they singing... but when the pastor preaching i sort of understood... i think tht is the power of God... haha... so cool...
So wonderful to see malays worshiping God... Hey... Is Jesus k... You know how cool it is not... I see how wonderful God is... Many times we live in sg, we just limit ourselves and God here... When we go out there... we see how when men have faith, God uses us to do so many things... We see indians, malays and the china ppl... they are all children of God... It all strikes me so much... You know i was thinking... Why are we still here when we accept Christ... Not beacause He wants us to love Him here, serve Him here, fellowship here... We can do these in heaven... Why? Why must we face trials... To mould us... For wad? Hello... It is to serve the non christians here... To witness to them... We need to be onward Christ soldiers... To fight the battle against sars... NO... Agains bird flu... NO... Against Satan... wad is sars? wad is bird flu? Death... Wad is satan? Eternal burning fire... God created me for a purpose... By grace i am saved... And i thank Him so much... Wad else can i ask for... But for His grace to be upon so many other lost souls around... Oh my...
AHh.... haha... I wanna witness for Him!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna obey!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Haha... So funny...
Very tired... i think i really very clumsy... very slow... very easy lose focus one... will just say the wrong things... keli i call shi hui... shi hui i call keli... dunno wad i thinking also... then just so tired...
Recently very tired... Holiday not like holiday... Monday to sunday almost everyday in school... Wed abit free... But then november busy bout the camp and farewell... Now is the two christmas event coming up... that day morning guitar prac, afternoon yf christmas prac, night the church skit prac... then is december... going to school reopen liao... need to chiong homework... school reopen straight away test... Math test... Then consecutive 3 c.lit test... Ss assignment... History Mao Ze Dong... Chemistry... Physics... Chinese still got 2 books to read... Ahhhhh... Feel like fainting...
Then emotionally can't really cope well... Quite a number of things going on which affects me quite alot... Ahhhhhh... Feel like crying...
Cried... But hor... God carries me thru all these hard times... "You carried me, through all my trials... You carried me... When I was troubled and alone... When my strength had gone... Couldn't get along without You... You carried me... So I wouldn't stumble... You carried me... Just when I needed someone there... You would be a friend... And I reach the end because You carried me..."
Yup... He carried me when i was tired... Me very tired now... So I know He is carrying me... And hor... Today someone was there beside us... My silly brother Alvin... Did something so silly... Make me laugh so hard... Haha... I think I almost fell off Jesus back... But I am so safe when Jesus is there... Really very funny leh... Haha... Alvin never fails to make me laugh...
But I am still tired... Just feel like typing something nice here today... REally very funny... HAHAHAHAHA... HAHAHAHAHAHA... Very hard for me to describe one...
Haha... Very scary... I dream today... I was taking a 5-10mins nap... Then i dreamt tht si kai ge scold me... then i ran away from church... haha... then i wake up jia mian suddenly appear in front of me... scary rite... i tell alot of ppl they all diao me... not scary meh.... Recently i keep dreaming... I dream of school reopen, then i haven't finish homework... Haha... Thts why yu han say i too stress liao... Then alvin thought me how to destress... HAHAHAHAHAHahahahahahahahaha... SO funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok... thts all for now... i need to do my ss and history thingy... need to find Mao Ze Dong!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh!
Recently very tired... Holiday not like holiday... Monday to sunday almost everyday in school... Wed abit free... But then november busy bout the camp and farewell... Now is the two christmas event coming up... that day morning guitar prac, afternoon yf christmas prac, night the church skit prac... then is december... going to school reopen liao... need to chiong homework... school reopen straight away test... Math test... Then consecutive 3 c.lit test... Ss assignment... History Mao Ze Dong... Chemistry... Physics... Chinese still got 2 books to read... Ahhhhh... Feel like fainting...
Then emotionally can't really cope well... Quite a number of things going on which affects me quite alot... Ahhhhhh... Feel like crying...
Cried... But hor... God carries me thru all these hard times... "You carried me, through all my trials... You carried me... When I was troubled and alone... When my strength had gone... Couldn't get along without You... You carried me... So I wouldn't stumble... You carried me... Just when I needed someone there... You would be a friend... And I reach the end because You carried me..."
Yup... He carried me when i was tired... Me very tired now... So I know He is carrying me... And hor... Today someone was there beside us... My silly brother Alvin... Did something so silly... Make me laugh so hard... Haha... I think I almost fell off Jesus back... But I am so safe when Jesus is there... Really very funny leh... Haha... Alvin never fails to make me laugh...
But I am still tired... Just feel like typing something nice here today... REally very funny... HAHAHAHAHA... HAHAHAHAHAHA... Very hard for me to describe one...
Haha... Very scary... I dream today... I was taking a 5-10mins nap... Then i dreamt tht si kai ge scold me... then i ran away from church... haha... then i wake up jia mian suddenly appear in front of me... scary rite... i tell alot of ppl they all diao me... not scary meh.... Recently i keep dreaming... I dream of school reopen, then i haven't finish homework... Haha... Thts why yu han say i too stress liao... Then alvin thought me how to destress... HAHAHAHAHAHahahahahahahahaha... SO funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok... thts all for now... i need to do my ss and history thingy... need to find Mao Ze Dong!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh!
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Dun read plz...
dun read... really... i am upset... just need a place to type out my feelings... prob there wun be any human being from now onwards to really sit down and listen to me crap... feel kind of sad... but i dun wan anybody to know... really... i dun wan them to know tht i am sad... i feel weird inside... very very... can anybody tell me wad is all this about... i just needed to type about it... seems like it is not wad i tot... some things can't be controlled rite? forget about it then...
Thursday, August 26, 2004
shh......
Today so diu lian... Cried in front of Mrs Goh... But she is very nice... Really quite nice la... She listened to me talked today, patiently... Then prayed for me... Hee...
Today i cry leh... Why? Miss Chan leaving... So sad rite... Chemistry leh... Miss Chan is really good lorh... Then she is so nice... Hehe... And she leaves means the ??? also leaving... So sad:p
Haiz... i am a very emotional ppl... esp when ppl are concerned... haiz... haiz... ok i go study liao k... shhh.... KEEPS QUIETS!!!
Today i cry leh... Why? Miss Chan leaving... So sad rite... Chemistry leh... Miss Chan is really good lorh... Then she is so nice... Hehe... And she leaves means the ??? also leaving... So sad:p
Haiz... i am a very emotional ppl... esp when ppl are concerned... haiz... haiz... ok i go study liao k... shhh.... KEEPS QUIETS!!!
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
The Amazing Father
Amen! Estee accepted Christ today...
God is good... Why... Coz He is!!!
He works in many ways... And He is just totally amazing... His will is not mine... He works in ways i can never imagine...
I was depressed for the past week... I cried... Felt helpless... Really helpless... But guess wad?? He not only din allow me to talk to many whom i wanna talk to... He really wants me to learn to rely on Him... FULLY, TOTALLY, WHOLEHEARTEDLY...
For no reasons... my com failed me... I couldn't sent email out... I couldn't type in my blog... I can't really convey my msg, feelings, emotions to others... U see the strangeness... I am someone who likes to share... And i can share with some ppl when i am sad... But i just couldn't talk last week... I felt weak... Tired...
But why did God let all this happen to me... He wants me to learn to pick myself up and grow IN Him... He wants to pick me up, HIMSELF... He does not want bro and sis to pick me up... He allowed my good friends close friends close ones to fail me... They wasn't there when i needed them... But one thing... He did used someone whom i am not close with to remind me that He is in charge...
He wants me to learn... In different phases... I may feel weak... Small... But He wants to use these feelings, these circumstances to mold me... Let me learn to be stronger, and rely on Him... I learnt to rely on bro and sis... i learnt to rely on my com... But when all these fails you, you notice tht wad u have to learn is rely on God...
But no matter wad... After i learn tht, He wants to rely on this ppl again... He wants me to love them... Just like how He loves me... He wants me to remember the importance of having fellowship with bro and sis... U know why these things keep going in circle... It is bcoz many things we have to revise it again and again... When we rely on ppl too much, God take them away... When we rely on com too much, He has His way of taking it away... He wants me to learn to rely on Him... And when i learn tht... He puts this things back into my life... But i am not perfect still... God constantly keeps watch of me... He understands my everything... And when things gets out of hand... He will put me thru trials again to remind me... To mold me to be someone pleasing to Him... It is a long process... And it is for life... And i know all these will only end when i am back home with Him for eternity...
Now tht i am okay, He puts the com back so tht i can use it... Amazing rite!!!!!!
God is good... Why... Coz He is!!!
He works in many ways... And He is just totally amazing... His will is not mine... He works in ways i can never imagine...
I was depressed for the past week... I cried... Felt helpless... Really helpless... But guess wad?? He not only din allow me to talk to many whom i wanna talk to... He really wants me to learn to rely on Him... FULLY, TOTALLY, WHOLEHEARTEDLY...
For no reasons... my com failed me... I couldn't sent email out... I couldn't type in my blog... I can't really convey my msg, feelings, emotions to others... U see the strangeness... I am someone who likes to share... And i can share with some ppl when i am sad... But i just couldn't talk last week... I felt weak... Tired...
But why did God let all this happen to me... He wants me to learn to pick myself up and grow IN Him... He wants to pick me up, HIMSELF... He does not want bro and sis to pick me up... He allowed my good friends close friends close ones to fail me... They wasn't there when i needed them... But one thing... He did used someone whom i am not close with to remind me that He is in charge...
He wants me to learn... In different phases... I may feel weak... Small... But He wants to use these feelings, these circumstances to mold me... Let me learn to be stronger, and rely on Him... I learnt to rely on bro and sis... i learnt to rely on my com... But when all these fails you, you notice tht wad u have to learn is rely on God...
But no matter wad... After i learn tht, He wants to rely on this ppl again... He wants me to love them... Just like how He loves me... He wants me to remember the importance of having fellowship with bro and sis... U know why these things keep going in circle... It is bcoz many things we have to revise it again and again... When we rely on ppl too much, God take them away... When we rely on com too much, He has His way of taking it away... He wants me to learn to rely on Him... And when i learn tht... He puts this things back into my life... But i am not perfect still... God constantly keeps watch of me... He understands my everything... And when things gets out of hand... He will put me thru trials again to remind me... To mold me to be someone pleasing to Him... It is a long process... And it is for life... And i know all these will only end when i am back home with Him for eternity...
Now tht i am okay, He puts the com back so tht i can use it... Amazing rite!!!!!!
Monday, August 16, 2004
Why?
U know... there are times where i can just sit there and dunno wad to do... lie on my sofa and eventually just falling asleep...
sometimes i just feel so down and so weird... u know i think tht God placed brothers and sisters in Christ, our parents, just those ppl, yah... He placed them there for us to feel loved... As in, He can't be there physically to be with us... And He knows very well tht as humans, we have a human body... we need physical contact with somebody else... He wants us to love others because He first loved us... He want us to love others with His love... So basically u yourself shld be able to experience others love... But u see... it has been weird for me... I get frustrated easily by ppl around me... i mean they may care for me, or in fact they care for me... they say they love me... they say i may not know but yes they love me... i think it is my problem huh... i dun really feel loved... sometimes i need them... i need to talk... i am not the hehe haha sihui they know... i am the hehe haha sihui who is constantly hurting inside... yes... i do find comfort in God... but like other humans i need someone else physically to listen to me... and u know it is funny tht those whom supposedly i can share with seems distant sometimes... ppl dun like to share with me izzit? i feel tht i am close to u... yet u dun feel this way... u know the kind of feeling...
and recently it is quite stress... when my friends around me tell me about my brothers and sisters in Christ... asking me why they like tht, why they can cheat in test, why they can ill talk other ppl.... at least to my friends i dun cheat in test, and i am considered quite forgiving and uderstanding towards others who wronged me... at least to them i analyse each problem... but i do grumble... i am not perfect... they know tht... but sometimes i may seem nice... yah... i am trying to be nice... i am learning how to be good... but i can't answer for my other bro and sis... and i dun wan to listen bad things abt them and forget it... bcoz this is not God wants... i will be listening to gossips... then wad am i suppose to do... talk to them? i tried actually... but wad can i say? hey u are wrong... i prayed for them... and is this wad i can do only?
see... there are so many things i wanna share with my friends... my christians friends... but it is hard sometimes...
recently something wrong with my body... i cnnt feel concern frm my bro and sis in all saints... maybe i din really tell them... funny la... but i felt it was cool when ginny and gang wanted to pray for me when they know wad happened to me... they have been the ones constantly encouraging me... even wan lin gave me a hug tht day... i wonder if ginny told her wad happened... or maybe ask her pray for me... but i thank God for them...
and suddenly daniel pop into my head... DANIEL... u are my coolest friend... the only one who left messages for me in this blog... thanks... u know sometimes u r really cool... really miss u leh... hehe... maybe nxt time we shall go out together... for a movie, musical, concert, wadeva... hehe... OK!!! we keep it in mind hor... really thank God for u...
hehe... after all... God did not deprive me of my bro/sis... sometimes He take them away so tht i can grow... so tht i may feel love in my family... so scary... just now got thunder... maybe tht is God signal... telling me tht He will never leave me...
yesterday i went for the spook show... wasn't tht great... but the sermon was GOOD... MANY came forward to believe Christ... thank God for tht... then i came out with something... Just a joke... "Be still and know tht I am God" u know why? coz heaven will be filled with His children... So congested tht we cannot move, so have to stand still and worship Him... hehe...
sometimes i just feel so down and so weird... u know i think tht God placed brothers and sisters in Christ, our parents, just those ppl, yah... He placed them there for us to feel loved... As in, He can't be there physically to be with us... And He knows very well tht as humans, we have a human body... we need physical contact with somebody else... He wants us to love others because He first loved us... He want us to love others with His love... So basically u yourself shld be able to experience others love... But u see... it has been weird for me... I get frustrated easily by ppl around me... i mean they may care for me, or in fact they care for me... they say they love me... they say i may not know but yes they love me... i think it is my problem huh... i dun really feel loved... sometimes i need them... i need to talk... i am not the hehe haha sihui they know... i am the hehe haha sihui who is constantly hurting inside... yes... i do find comfort in God... but like other humans i need someone else physically to listen to me... and u know it is funny tht those whom supposedly i can share with seems distant sometimes... ppl dun like to share with me izzit? i feel tht i am close to u... yet u dun feel this way... u know the kind of feeling...
and recently it is quite stress... when my friends around me tell me about my brothers and sisters in Christ... asking me why they like tht, why they can cheat in test, why they can ill talk other ppl.... at least to my friends i dun cheat in test, and i am considered quite forgiving and uderstanding towards others who wronged me... at least to them i analyse each problem... but i do grumble... i am not perfect... they know tht... but sometimes i may seem nice... yah... i am trying to be nice... i am learning how to be good... but i can't answer for my other bro and sis... and i dun wan to listen bad things abt them and forget it... bcoz this is not God wants... i will be listening to gossips... then wad am i suppose to do... talk to them? i tried actually... but wad can i say? hey u are wrong... i prayed for them... and is this wad i can do only?
see... there are so many things i wanna share with my friends... my christians friends... but it is hard sometimes...
recently something wrong with my body... i cnnt feel concern frm my bro and sis in all saints... maybe i din really tell them... funny la... but i felt it was cool when ginny and gang wanted to pray for me when they know wad happened to me... they have been the ones constantly encouraging me... even wan lin gave me a hug tht day... i wonder if ginny told her wad happened... or maybe ask her pray for me... but i thank God for them...
and suddenly daniel pop into my head... DANIEL... u are my coolest friend... the only one who left messages for me in this blog... thanks... u know sometimes u r really cool... really miss u leh... hehe... maybe nxt time we shall go out together... for a movie, musical, concert, wadeva... hehe... OK!!! we keep it in mind hor... really thank God for u...
hehe... after all... God did not deprive me of my bro/sis... sometimes He take them away so tht i can grow... so tht i may feel love in my family... so scary... just now got thunder... maybe tht is God signal... telling me tht He will never leave me...
yesterday i went for the spook show... wasn't tht great... but the sermon was GOOD... MANY came forward to believe Christ... thank God for tht... then i came out with something... Just a joke... "Be still and know tht I am God" u know why? coz heaven will be filled with His children... So congested tht we cannot move, so have to stand still and worship Him... hehe...
Saturday, August 14, 2004
Lazy...
Recently very lazy... Dunno why also... Or shld i say i have been lazy, recently worst nia... Then i dunno leh...
Today guitar very cool leh! hehe... I mean... Very funny and encouraging... Guitar have been slacking... Everyone talking, doing their ow stuffs then dun wanna practice the SYF piece... Then quite cool when i ask them to practice together they quite cooperative... hehe... Then Mr Shi praise us... Not really la... He just say ok... good... But tht is when he counted for us... Then when he nv count we luan liao... But ok la... We manage to play together after tht...
Then today cao ji funny... today break hor... then Mr Shi ask me "how long u want"... i mean how am i suppose to know rite... so i stupidly answer "how long ar? 10cm???"
I tell u he was so piss off lorh... then he started laughing... I think i am very lame at times leh... always say stupid things one... hehe... but at least some of it make ppl laugh rite...
thinking of laugh... tht day i am suppose to write a chinese compo about something... then i told jia mian "eh... i am going to write a compo on toilet paper..." then he replied "huh?" then i say " i wanted to write on toilet bowl but could not find any info..." then he started luffing...
stupid one lorh... he thought i wanted to write my compo ON toilet paper... and it is even more amusing when i said i wanted to write ON toilet bowl... haha... i think it is stupid... so funny... then i started imagining myself writing a compo on toilet paper and toilet bowl... haha...
ok i sleeping liao... hope to dream of tht guy... tomorrow no need wake up early...
Today guitar very cool leh! hehe... I mean... Very funny and encouraging... Guitar have been slacking... Everyone talking, doing their ow stuffs then dun wanna practice the SYF piece... Then quite cool when i ask them to practice together they quite cooperative... hehe... Then Mr Shi praise us... Not really la... He just say ok... good... But tht is when he counted for us... Then when he nv count we luan liao... But ok la... We manage to play together after tht...
Then today cao ji funny... today break hor... then Mr Shi ask me "how long u want"... i mean how am i suppose to know rite... so i stupidly answer "how long ar? 10cm???"
I tell u he was so piss off lorh... then he started laughing... I think i am very lame at times leh... always say stupid things one... hehe... but at least some of it make ppl laugh rite...
thinking of laugh... tht day i am suppose to write a chinese compo about something... then i told jia mian "eh... i am going to write a compo on toilet paper..." then he replied "huh?" then i say " i wanted to write on toilet bowl but could not find any info..." then he started luffing...
stupid one lorh... he thought i wanted to write my compo ON toilet paper... and it is even more amusing when i said i wanted to write ON toilet bowl... haha... i think it is stupid... so funny... then i started imagining myself writing a compo on toilet paper and toilet bowl... haha...
ok i sleeping liao... hope to dream of tht guy... tomorrow no need wake up early...
Friday, August 13, 2004
Dream
So many weird things happen recently... Gone crazy...
Yesterday i dreamt... And i fell in love... With a guy whom i never even met b4... May not even exist... Funny rite... I even wanted to skip school today so that i could continue sleeping...
Why like tht huh? How can i ever dream of someone i never met b4... Furthermore he is the main character leh... I cannot really remeber his face... I rmb he is not very shuai... But he is very nice... The scene is so realy lorh... With my friends and many ppl i know around me... Only diff is this guy...
Why like tht??? i dunno la... I am so in love with him... crazy liao...
Then i am so proud of Mr Goh Chok Tong... He is such a good Prime Minister... Haiz... But today handover liao... Ok la... I see the new PM Lee giving his speech... erm... i trust Mr Goh's judgement... It is great that he will still be staying in the cabinet as senior minister... although i dun like the thought of him being no.2... but ok lorh... at least he is still in... and it is great tht he said he wanna focus more on the international side... I think he is great... Built many bilateral relationship for Sg with many other nations... And i think he is very shuai lorh...
hehe... But we have moved into a new generation... Must have a new leader... then Singapore will have new dream new vision... With our two senior minister as support!!! WOW... it is going to be so cool...
I thank God, for He has placed me in Sg... And i wanna pray tht He will continue to watch over this island and our leaders... And i pray specifically for the salvation of our many ministers... I think many of them are non-christians... May the Lord open their eyes and hearts...
Yesterday i dreamt... And i fell in love... With a guy whom i never even met b4... May not even exist... Funny rite... I even wanted to skip school today so that i could continue sleeping...
Why like tht huh? How can i ever dream of someone i never met b4... Furthermore he is the main character leh... I cannot really remeber his face... I rmb he is not very shuai... But he is very nice... The scene is so realy lorh... With my friends and many ppl i know around me... Only diff is this guy...
Why like tht??? i dunno la... I am so in love with him... crazy liao...
Then i am so proud of Mr Goh Chok Tong... He is such a good Prime Minister... Haiz... But today handover liao... Ok la... I see the new PM Lee giving his speech... erm... i trust Mr Goh's judgement... It is great that he will still be staying in the cabinet as senior minister... although i dun like the thought of him being no.2... but ok lorh... at least he is still in... and it is great tht he said he wanna focus more on the international side... I think he is great... Built many bilateral relationship for Sg with many other nations... And i think he is very shuai lorh...
hehe... But we have moved into a new generation... Must have a new leader... then Singapore will have new dream new vision... With our two senior minister as support!!! WOW... it is going to be so cool...
I thank God, for He has placed me in Sg... And i wanna pray tht He will continue to watch over this island and our leaders... And i pray specifically for the salvation of our many ministers... I think many of them are non-christians... May the Lord open their eyes and hearts...
Sunday, August 08, 2004
hehe
Really cool!!! When u put God b4 everything else... U experience Him everytime... In everything... I was upset... Could not find joy in many things tht i do... It is only when He is in the 1st place, then i will really experience the joy when doin things tht i feel stress about... Like on thursday i so sad... so down... feel so lousy... but during guitar, i told God tht am i going to bring these feelings to guitar? I mean ok lah... i feel stress but somehow i commit it to God... then ok lorh... during guitar i forgot alot of things... i just concentrate on wad i need to do in guitar... so it was ok...
Oh then yesterday i went to watch i-robot with my friends... wanted to watch mean girls... but finish liao... then i was so piss off... i dun like robotic show... starting of it i was like grumbling... then feel like sleeping like tht... Until i told myself, "hey! am i going to waste my money? am i going to waste my time here? God, show me wad u wan me to learn from this movie..." Hey... Even robots have purpose! they got 3 laws to follow... and when they follow, everything was good... until here comes a type of robot who did not follow... then the whole world became chaotic... then among them comes "sonny"... He could not find his purpose... Why did his "father" create him? He went to search for his purpose... Eventually found... And he fulfilled it... I think this reminds me of something tht happened in the bible...
God created men... He has a set of rules for us to follow... It was good when we go according to His plan... But when we disobey, everything became chaotic... Then "sonny", we are like him sometimes... searching for our purpose... And when we found it, everything was good... We have Jesus... He came down here to wash our sins... If we followed Him in the first place, everything would be fine... But we din, we caused our Creator to suffer... And right now... there are still ppl disobeying...
Funny rite... How we are worst then robots... Even robots have purpose... haha... Do we? I have!!!
Oh then yesterday i went to watch i-robot with my friends... wanted to watch mean girls... but finish liao... then i was so piss off... i dun like robotic show... starting of it i was like grumbling... then feel like sleeping like tht... Until i told myself, "hey! am i going to waste my money? am i going to waste my time here? God, show me wad u wan me to learn from this movie..." Hey... Even robots have purpose! they got 3 laws to follow... and when they follow, everything was good... until here comes a type of robot who did not follow... then the whole world became chaotic... then among them comes "sonny"... He could not find his purpose... Why did his "father" create him? He went to search for his purpose... Eventually found... And he fulfilled it... I think this reminds me of something tht happened in the bible...
God created men... He has a set of rules for us to follow... It was good when we go according to His plan... But when we disobey, everything became chaotic... Then "sonny", we are like him sometimes... searching for our purpose... And when we found it, everything was good... We have Jesus... He came down here to wash our sins... If we followed Him in the first place, everything would be fine... But we din, we caused our Creator to suffer... And right now... there are still ppl disobeying...
Funny rite... How we are worst then robots... Even robots have purpose... haha... Do we? I have!!!
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