Hehe...Today this chen ye wei chuan dao aka Pastor Ezekial came to preach for sat service... He is soooo shuai (to me)... and... probably becoz i wanna be a preacher also, so i was attracted to him... Then he dun have a wedding ring.. sooo... it is highly possible tht he is still single...
hehe... But... i was focus during sat service.. Focus on God :) And i was listening to the pastor preaching... and i learn a lot from him about God also... :)
then hor, i must admit i am very mesmerise by him.. hehe.. then was kind of happy when he smiled at me! but... i realise i was distracted... so i decided to keep myself calm... oh, but... still feeling a bit... hehe... guess i have a crush on him... but this kind of things will go on... coz i love man of God...
Well.. this sets me thinking.. and i was being reminded tht... "a godly man may not be the right man..."
Ok.. so wad i concluded today with Ke Li is tht... I will start praying for my husband today... i hope he will be a preacher also... a pastor... someone i meet in trinity college maybe... hehe... so exciting to meet him... waiting in anticipation... ya... so i will pray.. and when the day comes, i will tell him " I have been praying for you since 24 June 2006!" So exciting right.. I wonder how the man God prepared for me will be like...
What if ultimately God wants me to stay single? Well, i guess it will be alright too, coz i know He is my ultimate focus! though i would want a man to grow with me in the word of God and raise kids together! :)
yeah.. so today's entry is to commemorate this day! so i can keep track! hehe... and remind myself to pray... :)
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Monday, June 19, 2006
Beach
Went to the beach today after choir prac... Hehe..
Who was there? My papa, mama, didi, Ah Ma, 5 Gu, 5 Gu Zhang, Ah Mei Jie, En En, 4 Gu, Sally Jie, xiao shu, xiao shen, si min, si ying, our three maids... 18 of us.. haha.. and this is only 4 out of 12 family, erm actually got 16 family... haha...
Opps.. tht wasn't the main reason why i type this blog.. i usually dun update on this kind of things.. haha.. okok.. i will start on wad i wanna share about..
My Ah Ma is 80 this year.. And i really love her so soo sooo much... wad happen today? She decided to go down to the beach and soak herself in water.. (swimming if u would call it??)... the waves was *large?*.. and after hesistating for dunno how long.. she decided to go down.. so she pass her bag to me and walk down.. dun be silly.. how would i allow her to go down herself? i walk with her.. it was quite exciting.. about 10+ years ago, our big family use to go to the beach together often, and we will play in the water together, with my Ah Ma.. she was 60+,70 then... i guess she just wanted to swim again.. now swimming pool cannot wear home clothes le so she haven't been able to soak herself in water (taking into considerations her body condition as well).. but i know she yearns to be in the water again, she shared with me before (not explicitly though).. many times when we bring her to the beach, she wouldn't wanna go down to the water.. think she scared (body conditions and old age i guess).. But this time.. she wanna go down.. so i held her hands..
As we walk down, i signalled to my dad who was in the water, asking him to come and help my ah ma (i couldn't help my ah ma any further, i was wearing jeans and a quite nice top with covered shoes and socks..) as my ah ma walk further down,i called my brother over so that he can walk down with her..(he wearing shorts..)... i stood down, and watch them walk further down, then i see my dad and my bro trying to hold my ah ma, getting her to sit down on the sand.. my my, the next moment the waves come and she fell back.. after a while she turned over (meaning her face was facing the ground).. the waves was too strong.. i panic and i just couldn't stand watching the way my dad and my bro held my ah ma.. although she was smiling (i think she was enjoying herself) but i still dun feel save watching her in my dad and bro arms.. i took off my shoes and socks, turn back to get someone to carry my ah ma's bag.. it was then tht i realised a lot of ppl was looking at my ah ma, apparently finding her admirable? amusing?? i dunno.. but my gu gu(s) was asking me to ask ah ma come up, very paiseh.. i pass the bag to one of them and rush down to the waters..i held my ah ma up, make sure she was alright.. then saw the smile on her face.. then suddenly, my xiao shu came down and held my ah ma up, asking her to come up quickly, "very paiseh leh"... then they pull her up with my daddy.. i was holding her hands.. after tht when going up, my xiao shu walk away quite angrily, then my gu gu came down to say tht it was very paiseh..
i stood there.. feeling a bit weird.. i wondered how my ah ma is feeling.. but i held her, told her it is alright.. she was still smiling, but it was a bit diff.. i got her clothes and stuffs, and walk with her to bathe.. barefooted, we walk, i ask her if she had fun, she said yes and smiled.. my jeans was heavy, but i was happy.. i walk in with her to the cubicle (ya, see her bathe.. haha..).. i told her she just had water baptism.. i told her i prayed just now, and she now belongs to Jesus! she laugh.. and she say, "aiya, just wanted to go down and wash away the past only".. Oh my.. haha.. i told her " ya lor, this is baptism lorh.." then i told her how happy i will be when one day she really calls God her saviour, and then i will fang(4) xin(1).. (all these convo is in teochew.. haha)..
i stood in the cubicle, was splashed by the water, seems to be showers of blessings on me.. i treasure every moment spent with my ah ma.. i know she is happy too.. and i know how much she loves this grand daughter of hers..
i guess we show love to my ah ma differently.. but sometimes we care more about how the world look at us more than we care about the person we want to show love to..
i really love my ah ma.. i am not sure if she recieved the salvation anot.. i will continue praying.. for her and for my family..
she is 80 yrs old.. how many more days, months, or years do i have with her? would she see me get married? would she get to carry my child? or would i go before her?
just wanna share this with you guys who happen to see this entry.. treasure the time you have to spent with your love ones.. only with God, we'll then be able to spent eternity with each other, in love.. I guess the reason why i tend to love so many ppl is becoz of God.. my character also maybe, but then again, i am created and mould by Him.. hehe.. He is my Father.. Oh!! Happy Father's Day again to my Heavenly Father!
hehe.. i went with my papa to eat dinner with my ah ma, didi, and maid at night.. actually a lot of things happen today.. maybe i will share more again the next entry... hehe :)
remember, show love while you can.. :)
Who was there? My papa, mama, didi, Ah Ma, 5 Gu, 5 Gu Zhang, Ah Mei Jie, En En, 4 Gu, Sally Jie, xiao shu, xiao shen, si min, si ying, our three maids... 18 of us.. haha.. and this is only 4 out of 12 family, erm actually got 16 family... haha...
Opps.. tht wasn't the main reason why i type this blog.. i usually dun update on this kind of things.. haha.. okok.. i will start on wad i wanna share about..
My Ah Ma is 80 this year.. And i really love her so soo sooo much... wad happen today? She decided to go down to the beach and soak herself in water.. (swimming if u would call it??)... the waves was *large?*.. and after hesistating for dunno how long.. she decided to go down.. so she pass her bag to me and walk down.. dun be silly.. how would i allow her to go down herself? i walk with her.. it was quite exciting.. about 10+ years ago, our big family use to go to the beach together often, and we will play in the water together, with my Ah Ma.. she was 60+,70 then... i guess she just wanted to swim again.. now swimming pool cannot wear home clothes le so she haven't been able to soak herself in water (taking into considerations her body condition as well).. but i know she yearns to be in the water again, she shared with me before (not explicitly though).. many times when we bring her to the beach, she wouldn't wanna go down to the water.. think she scared (body conditions and old age i guess).. But this time.. she wanna go down.. so i held her hands..
As we walk down, i signalled to my dad who was in the water, asking him to come and help my ah ma (i couldn't help my ah ma any further, i was wearing jeans and a quite nice top with covered shoes and socks..) as my ah ma walk further down,i called my brother over so that he can walk down with her..(he wearing shorts..)... i stood down, and watch them walk further down, then i see my dad and my bro trying to hold my ah ma, getting her to sit down on the sand.. my my, the next moment the waves come and she fell back.. after a while she turned over (meaning her face was facing the ground).. the waves was too strong.. i panic and i just couldn't stand watching the way my dad and my bro held my ah ma.. although she was smiling (i think she was enjoying herself) but i still dun feel save watching her in my dad and bro arms.. i took off my shoes and socks, turn back to get someone to carry my ah ma's bag.. it was then tht i realised a lot of ppl was looking at my ah ma, apparently finding her admirable? amusing?? i dunno.. but my gu gu(s) was asking me to ask ah ma come up, very paiseh.. i pass the bag to one of them and rush down to the waters..i held my ah ma up, make sure she was alright.. then saw the smile on her face.. then suddenly, my xiao shu came down and held my ah ma up, asking her to come up quickly, "very paiseh leh"... then they pull her up with my daddy.. i was holding her hands.. after tht when going up, my xiao shu walk away quite angrily, then my gu gu came down to say tht it was very paiseh..
i stood there.. feeling a bit weird.. i wondered how my ah ma is feeling.. but i held her, told her it is alright.. she was still smiling, but it was a bit diff.. i got her clothes and stuffs, and walk with her to bathe.. barefooted, we walk, i ask her if she had fun, she said yes and smiled.. my jeans was heavy, but i was happy.. i walk in with her to the cubicle (ya, see her bathe.. haha..).. i told her she just had water baptism.. i told her i prayed just now, and she now belongs to Jesus! she laugh.. and she say, "aiya, just wanted to go down and wash away the past only".. Oh my.. haha.. i told her " ya lor, this is baptism lorh.." then i told her how happy i will be when one day she really calls God her saviour, and then i will fang(4) xin(1).. (all these convo is in teochew.. haha)..
i stood in the cubicle, was splashed by the water, seems to be showers of blessings on me.. i treasure every moment spent with my ah ma.. i know she is happy too.. and i know how much she loves this grand daughter of hers..
i guess we show love to my ah ma differently.. but sometimes we care more about how the world look at us more than we care about the person we want to show love to..
i really love my ah ma.. i am not sure if she recieved the salvation anot.. i will continue praying.. for her and for my family..
she is 80 yrs old.. how many more days, months, or years do i have with her? would she see me get married? would she get to carry my child? or would i go before her?
just wanna share this with you guys who happen to see this entry.. treasure the time you have to spent with your love ones.. only with God, we'll then be able to spent eternity with each other, in love.. I guess the reason why i tend to love so many ppl is becoz of God.. my character also maybe, but then again, i am created and mould by Him.. hehe.. He is my Father.. Oh!! Happy Father's Day again to my Heavenly Father!
hehe.. i went with my papa to eat dinner with my ah ma, didi, and maid at night.. actually a lot of things happen today.. maybe i will share more again the next entry... hehe :)
remember, show love while you can.. :)
Monday, June 12, 2006
Seeking Comfort
Was feeling very upset yesterday.. Needed comfort.. Din wanted to talk to God about it..
Was on my way to the airport to meet ke li.. then was so upset, i on my discman (yes, i still using cd player), then was listening to this secular love song.. then next track is a christian song.. then i decided to find comfort (or numb myself to put it in a real way) in tht song, so i repeated tht song.. Then mainly becoz i dun want it to skip to the next christian song, totally din wanna listen to God at all..
Was seating on the train, (then you know the waiting time from tanah merah is so long one) then the more i listen, the more upset i become, then the more i think about why i am upset, images flow thru my head, ahh... but i still dun wanna talk to God, dun wanna let Him comfort me..
Ultimately, when i reach airport, i decided to change track.. I decided to listen to the christian song.. Then i kind of cried.. I realised how foolish i was.. i choose to let the world comfort me.. and i choose to believe tht i can go thru this alone.. In fact, i thought i could let go of the thing i wanna let go with my own will power, own wisdom and own strength.. and when i get hurt in the process, once again i choose to let others comfort me.. seeking love from man alone.. i thought "what can God do about it?".. i was so wrong..
"For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength." 1 Corinthians 1:25
He spoke to me thru the song.. I went back to Him in prayers.. He comforted me..
I am still recovering.. In the process of setting my heart right again, in the process of getting healed.. I dunno how the thing will end up to be like, but i know God will hold me in His arms, and i will be secure in Him.
Just wanna encourage you guys who read this blog.. That no matter what happens, God is there to comfort us, to carry us through our problems.. Even if you dun believe in the name of Jesus now, one day if you feel that the world can't comfort you anymore, and you are willing to open your heart to let God comfort you, call on His name and He will hear you.. Seek comfort in Him for He cares for us..
He comforted me, and i know He will be there for you too :)
Was on my way to the airport to meet ke li.. then was so upset, i on my discman (yes, i still using cd player), then was listening to this secular love song.. then next track is a christian song.. then i decided to find comfort (or numb myself to put it in a real way) in tht song, so i repeated tht song.. Then mainly becoz i dun want it to skip to the next christian song, totally din wanna listen to God at all..
Was seating on the train, (then you know the waiting time from tanah merah is so long one) then the more i listen, the more upset i become, then the more i think about why i am upset, images flow thru my head, ahh... but i still dun wanna talk to God, dun wanna let Him comfort me..
Ultimately, when i reach airport, i decided to change track.. I decided to listen to the christian song.. Then i kind of cried.. I realised how foolish i was.. i choose to let the world comfort me.. and i choose to believe tht i can go thru this alone.. In fact, i thought i could let go of the thing i wanna let go with my own will power, own wisdom and own strength.. and when i get hurt in the process, once again i choose to let others comfort me.. seeking love from man alone.. i thought "what can God do about it?".. i was so wrong..
"For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength." 1 Corinthians 1:25
He spoke to me thru the song.. I went back to Him in prayers.. He comforted me..
I am still recovering.. In the process of setting my heart right again, in the process of getting healed.. I dunno how the thing will end up to be like, but i know God will hold me in His arms, and i will be secure in Him.
Just wanna encourage you guys who read this blog.. That no matter what happens, God is there to comfort us, to carry us through our problems.. Even if you dun believe in the name of Jesus now, one day if you feel that the world can't comfort you anymore, and you are willing to open your heart to let God comfort you, call on His name and He will hear you.. Seek comfort in Him for He cares for us..
He comforted me, and i know He will be there for you too :)
Friday, May 26, 2006
Hanging On
Trying to smile.. Learning to trust.. Hanging On..
Tired lips, weary hearts, aching arms..
I would love to lie in His arms..
So save and secure..
Don't wake me up please..
I just want to rest in Him.. Rest..
Tired lips, weary hearts, aching arms..
I would love to lie in His arms..
So save and secure..
Don't wake me up please..
I just want to rest in Him.. Rest..
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Meaningless
I am trying to learn.. Enjoying the presense of God alone.. Not being surrounded by people..
I dun feel like talking much anymore.. People who are quiet gets accepted into the society too.. People who are quiet serves God as well..
When you speak, you make assumptions.. You assume tht the person you are talking to understands what you mean.. Many times, or maybe all the time, the only have partial understanding.. Sometimes people dun show they dun understand.. In fact, they probably dunno that they have misunderstood..
I dun wanna be misunderstood.. I dun wanna be labeled as someone i am not.. I dun wanna talk anymore.. People associate you with their interpretations of what you say.. I am tired..
Thinking of what to say so that ppl wun get the wrong msg, thinking of how to say..
I feel like withdrawing from a lot of stuffs.. But there are responsibilities..Can i not be responsible? But if you are not responsible for once.. Ppl wun have confidence in you again.. Does it matter to me? So what if it doesn't matter to me now? How would i know if it not important to me next time? How would i know if there is a next time? And when they have no confidence in you, will what you say have creditbility? But.. no.. you are not going to say anything le... So does it matter?
All talk, all action.. All talk, no action.. No talk, all action.. No talk, no action..
What is the meaning of being yourself? Who is yourself? Is there only one yourself? I simply cannot fit in to the communities well.. So is there something wrong with myself? Or am i not being myself? Then do you seek to fit in to the communities well or do you seek to be yourself? Or is there many side to yourself, you just have to find the right side to face the different communities? So does it mean there is more than one yourself? Is this what you call identity crisis? But what is an identity? Are you suppose to have diff kind of identities as you appear in diff places?
Seeking identity in Christ.. I only have God now.. The One who will not misunderstands me, even if i dun understands myself.. The One who wun misinterpret me.. Coz i dun communicate with Him using words.. He sees the heart.. The only One.. Can i go back to Him?
Today.. the crow flew pass me 4 times.. It flew over my shoulders.. I ask God if He had something to tell me.. I din get my answer..
I dun feel like talking much anymore.. People who are quiet gets accepted into the society too.. People who are quiet serves God as well..
When you speak, you make assumptions.. You assume tht the person you are talking to understands what you mean.. Many times, or maybe all the time, the only have partial understanding.. Sometimes people dun show they dun understand.. In fact, they probably dunno that they have misunderstood..
I dun wanna be misunderstood.. I dun wanna be labeled as someone i am not.. I dun wanna talk anymore.. People associate you with their interpretations of what you say.. I am tired..
Thinking of what to say so that ppl wun get the wrong msg, thinking of how to say..
I feel like withdrawing from a lot of stuffs.. But there are responsibilities..Can i not be responsible? But if you are not responsible for once.. Ppl wun have confidence in you again.. Does it matter to me? So what if it doesn't matter to me now? How would i know if it not important to me next time? How would i know if there is a next time? And when they have no confidence in you, will what you say have creditbility? But.. no.. you are not going to say anything le... So does it matter?
All talk, all action.. All talk, no action.. No talk, all action.. No talk, no action..
What is the meaning of being yourself? Who is yourself? Is there only one yourself? I simply cannot fit in to the communities well.. So is there something wrong with myself? Or am i not being myself? Then do you seek to fit in to the communities well or do you seek to be yourself? Or is there many side to yourself, you just have to find the right side to face the different communities? So does it mean there is more than one yourself? Is this what you call identity crisis? But what is an identity? Are you suppose to have diff kind of identities as you appear in diff places?
Seeking identity in Christ.. I only have God now.. The One who will not misunderstands me, even if i dun understands myself.. The One who wun misinterpret me.. Coz i dun communicate with Him using words.. He sees the heart.. The only One.. Can i go back to Him?
Today.. the crow flew pass me 4 times.. It flew over my shoulders.. I ask God if He had something to tell me.. I din get my answer..
Friday, April 14, 2006
0601 outing
Today went for the 0601 outing.. Really love them so much.. You feel so comfortable, and real relax..
Ok, i admit i am emotional.. Have been trying to deny this, but i guess it is a fact.. But.. I can smile and smile ma, but sometimes i just dun like.. Why must i act tough in front of ppl i feel close too..
Felt quite vunerable for the past weeks.. I trying to be strong, coz ppl say i too emotional.. I can talk to my 0602 classmates.. They are quite fun to be with.. But.. I dunno.. When i am with oeisters, i really laugh.. really lame... enjoy the time when we share about the tutors we like/admire... haha... really can share.. and you feel relax..
i got make new friends in 0602.. Some whom i can really share with and laugh with also.. and mao mao is very nice... although sometimes he do things tht are quite shocking.. but still think he is an old chidish man.. opps..
and i really miss my 0601 combination of tutors.. haha.. tht includes Mr tong although i din take GP.. ALL of them are nice and good leh.. not kidding you man.. haha.. now.. ok la.. i like my GP tutor for the 1st week of school-ms victoria.. she remembers you one lorh.. then haha.. so nice.. some of the tutors you can just be so comfy with and they are not only tutors but can be friends you talk to..
i think i really emotional hor.. emotions are beautiful things, but i shouldn't let the evil one take me to a place i dun want to.. make me feel so miserable.. hehe.. these are some things someone important told me before.. :) i still trying to learn.. but i really dun get it leh?? i only show my feelings more than other ppl ma.. then hor.. ok ok.. i emotional ok.. haiz... but this is something unique about me.. i feel a lot.. haha..
Today is good friday.. I really wanna tell my friends and family how much Jesus loves us.. I really pray for chances when i can share Christ's love with my friends.. Something so important to me.. Haha.. The reason why i stayed in Nanyang..
God.. Thank You so much.. FOr loving me, for Jesus, for my familes, for my friends, for a chance to meet them.. I pray Lord that You will use me to share about Your grace and salvation to my dearies.. In Jesus Name i pray, Amen!
Ok, i admit i am emotional.. Have been trying to deny this, but i guess it is a fact.. But.. I can smile and smile ma, but sometimes i just dun like.. Why must i act tough in front of ppl i feel close too..
Felt quite vunerable for the past weeks.. I trying to be strong, coz ppl say i too emotional.. I can talk to my 0602 classmates.. They are quite fun to be with.. But.. I dunno.. When i am with oeisters, i really laugh.. really lame... enjoy the time when we share about the tutors we like/admire... haha... really can share.. and you feel relax..
i got make new friends in 0602.. Some whom i can really share with and laugh with also.. and mao mao is very nice... although sometimes he do things tht are quite shocking.. but still think he is an old chidish man.. opps..
and i really miss my 0601 combination of tutors.. haha.. tht includes Mr tong although i din take GP.. ALL of them are nice and good leh.. not kidding you man.. haha.. now.. ok la.. i like my GP tutor for the 1st week of school-ms victoria.. she remembers you one lorh.. then haha.. so nice.. some of the tutors you can just be so comfy with and they are not only tutors but can be friends you talk to..
i think i really emotional hor.. emotions are beautiful things, but i shouldn't let the evil one take me to a place i dun want to.. make me feel so miserable.. hehe.. these are some things someone important told me before.. :) i still trying to learn.. but i really dun get it leh?? i only show my feelings more than other ppl ma.. then hor.. ok ok.. i emotional ok.. haiz... but this is something unique about me.. i feel a lot.. haha..
Today is good friday.. I really wanna tell my friends and family how much Jesus loves us.. I really pray for chances when i can share Christ's love with my friends.. Something so important to me.. Haha.. The reason why i stayed in Nanyang..
God.. Thank You so much.. FOr loving me, for Jesus, for my familes, for my friends, for a chance to meet them.. I pray Lord that You will use me to share about Your grace and salvation to my dearies.. In Jesus Name i pray, Amen!
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Torn Apart..
We must learn to let go.. Please... There is nothing to hold on anymore.. Or do you mean history?? Holding on to history.. i tell myself i need to look forward, i shall not dwell in history anymore.. easier said then done..
i am having a hard hard time.. a very very hard one.. miss 0601.. really wanna keep the spirit going.. but... it is not possible.. not at all.. then the more i spend time with the 0601 ppl, the more i can't pull out of it.. and the emotions get stronger and stronger each day.. the disappoinments, the sadness... and when i see how 0602 now tries very hard to bond with each other.. how they are trying to open up, to be true to one another.. and how much i dun dare to put in my emotions.. i feel so bad.. i wanna love them... in fact i do love them, individually.. but i really dun dare to love the class.. i love 0601.. first time i really love a class, cry becoz of a class... and i wanna do the same for 0602, but i dun dare... it hurts.. really.. so torn apart..
why can ppl seem so indifferent.. i am emotional??? too emotional?? my new class got 8 time-tables.. isn't it a lot also?? and gp tutor change, no more mr tong.. econs tutor change, no more mr nandwani.. no KI, no more mr seah and ms ng.. heart sinks..
The world changes.. But one thing i know.. God never change..
God i need you.. my little heart is wounded... broken into pieces.. i need you to mend it.. i need your comfort.. i need to use this heart to love again.. God.. guard my heart..
i am having a hard hard time.. a very very hard one.. miss 0601.. really wanna keep the spirit going.. but... it is not possible.. not at all.. then the more i spend time with the 0601 ppl, the more i can't pull out of it.. and the emotions get stronger and stronger each day.. the disappoinments, the sadness... and when i see how 0602 now tries very hard to bond with each other.. how they are trying to open up, to be true to one another.. and how much i dun dare to put in my emotions.. i feel so bad.. i wanna love them... in fact i do love them, individually.. but i really dun dare to love the class.. i love 0601.. first time i really love a class, cry becoz of a class... and i wanna do the same for 0602, but i dun dare... it hurts.. really.. so torn apart..
why can ppl seem so indifferent.. i am emotional??? too emotional?? my new class got 8 time-tables.. isn't it a lot also?? and gp tutor change, no more mr tong.. econs tutor change, no more mr nandwani.. no KI, no more mr seah and ms ng.. heart sinks..
The world changes.. But one thing i know.. God never change..
God i need you.. my little heart is wounded... broken into pieces.. i need you to mend it.. i need your comfort.. i need to use this heart to love again.. God.. guard my heart..
Saturday, February 04, 2006
distracted, giving thanks
I told myself i cannot consume by all these thoughts.. But... But...
Yesterday Jun He tell me he accept Christ le.. So cool la.. I see how God has been working in this BROTHER since last year.. he told me he believe, but he just feel weird having a diff religion as his family.. then recently his sister accepted Christ, so he also accept Christ... And guess how did he recieve Jesus?? He said the sinners prayer by himself (with the Holy SPirit guiding him though)... Coz last year i share with him 4 spiritual law, then ask him to keep tht book, and then tell him he can say the prayer himself when he feel tht he is ready, and ask him to pray at home... HAha.. then he really say it by himself... haha... God is great!
Then my papa is starting to get closer and closer to God, yearning for God's words and to know Him more.. hehe... God is working in my papa...
So many things to give thanks to.. but i am so distracted...
Yesterday Jun He tell me he accept Christ le.. So cool la.. I see how God has been working in this BROTHER since last year.. he told me he believe, but he just feel weird having a diff religion as his family.. then recently his sister accepted Christ, so he also accept Christ... And guess how did he recieve Jesus?? He said the sinners prayer by himself (with the Holy SPirit guiding him though)... Coz last year i share with him 4 spiritual law, then ask him to keep tht book, and then tell him he can say the prayer himself when he feel tht he is ready, and ask him to pray at home... HAha.. then he really say it by himself... haha... God is great!
Then my papa is starting to get closer and closer to God, yearning for God's words and to know Him more.. hehe... God is working in my papa...
So many things to give thanks to.. but i am so distracted...
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Reflections
Haha... Nonsense... Wad reflections... just some thoughts
I was just telling God recently, that I am too consumed by things around me.. Then it is not good..
I want to watch the saturday movie, i want to get married.. Talking about married... Oh my... I really wanna get married so badly.. It is not about having a boyfriend, it is about having a husband to spent your life with, built a family, grow together, support each other... See, i am too consumed by all these thoughts... It is not good... If like tht hor, if i am just thinking about getting married, what about preaching for God???
I told my dear Father that I cannot get too consumed by these thoughts.. For about one week or so le, i guess this has to stop.. though i love man of God, but i have to love God the most!
shh... if you all see this hor, then see me too consume about these thoughts again must knock my head ok!! hee...
God i love You, and i love Ah Ma, and my family!!
I was just telling God recently, that I am too consumed by things around me.. Then it is not good..
I want to watch the saturday movie, i want to get married.. Talking about married... Oh my... I really wanna get married so badly.. It is not about having a boyfriend, it is about having a husband to spent your life with, built a family, grow together, support each other... See, i am too consumed by all these thoughts... It is not good... If like tht hor, if i am just thinking about getting married, what about preaching for God???
I told my dear Father that I cannot get too consumed by these thoughts.. For about one week or so le, i guess this has to stop.. though i love man of God, but i have to love God the most!
shh... if you all see this hor, then see me too consume about these thoughts again must knock my head ok!! hee...
God i love You, and i love Ah Ma, and my family!!
Monday, November 28, 2005
God created time
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, He has put eternity into man's heart, yet so that he cannot find out what God has done from the beginning to the end." Ecclesiastes 3:11
God created time, and made everything beautiful in it.
1st: Time is created by God. God IS WHO HE IS even before time begin. He is not limited by time. The question "when?" deals with time, and since God created time, He is not limited by time, and the question "When did God first come about?" cannot stand.
So God created time and gives man the knowledge of time, but that's not all. He also placed in our hearts that although there is a "time", and we are limited by it, there is also an "eternity" where we are not going to be limited by time. So, after we've reached our time limit on earth, we are face with eternity.
The most important point is, although we know there's a "time" where we are limited, and an eternity we have to face, we are still NOT God! We cannot know what God has done from the beginning and even to the end. Our God is of a higher authority than us.
He gives us partial understanding of Him. He is God, the ONE who NEVER changes.
God created time, and made everything beautiful in it.
1st: Time is created by God. God IS WHO HE IS even before time begin. He is not limited by time. The question "when?" deals with time, and since God created time, He is not limited by time, and the question "When did God first come about?" cannot stand.
So God created time and gives man the knowledge of time, but that's not all. He also placed in our hearts that although there is a "time", and we are limited by it, there is also an "eternity" where we are not going to be limited by time. So, after we've reached our time limit on earth, we are face with eternity.
The most important point is, although we know there's a "time" where we are limited, and an eternity we have to face, we are still NOT God! We cannot know what God has done from the beginning and even to the end. Our God is of a higher authority than us.
He gives us partial understanding of Him. He is God, the ONE who NEVER changes.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Blue Eyes
i saw blue eyes again on the 15th Nov 10:11pm.. Think he is going home from work...
Hehe... This is the fourth time.. But the 1st time i seen him alone... He was alone and i was alone... haha...
Exams over... Dun wanna type le... hehe... Blue eyes!
Hehe... This is the fourth time.. But the 1st time i seen him alone... He was alone and i was alone... haha...
Exams over... Dun wanna type le... hehe... Blue eyes!
Thursday, November 03, 2005
情绪混乱
考试到了，照理我应该要好好念书，但总觉得心情很难集中，似乎被什么捆住似的。脑袋和心里怪怪的。也不知道发生什么事。心动了。。。对谁？不知道。或许是因为不想面对事实吧。不想喜欢他。明明知道不可以。既然决定了，又何必苦恼呢？有时就没办法。
还是喜欢蓝眼睛好。至少不会感到伤心，不会感到苦恼。偶尔还可以为他写诗。增添生活乐趣。
用华文写，是不想让太多人了结心里的感受。或许因为自己很少写网上日记，根本就很少人会来看。。。。哈哈。哈哈。
还是喜欢蓝眼睛好。至少不会感到伤心，不会感到苦恼。偶尔还可以为他写诗。增添生活乐趣。
用华文写，是不想让太多人了结心里的感受。或许因为自己很少写网上日记，根本就很少人会来看。。。。哈哈。哈哈。
Monday, August 08, 2005
lalalala...
haha... haha... i so tired... i am at rach house... she lost my da xia... i like da xia... i love God... i like him... haha... like him... like him.. like him... like him...
but actually i really love God leh... He is so cool la... so so cool... God i love You... I love love You... hehe...
i very luan... very very tired.. i wanna watch da xia...
my heart hurts... but it does not hurt tht much when i give it to God...
ok God i give my heart to you k... You guard my heart ok...
My heart so pain... But not very pain le... God... You must teach me wad to do k... You must lead me... I know you will :)
ahhhhhhhhhhh............ why must there be guys? haha... so attractive...
i miss kai ge... i miss alvin lai... i miss so so many ppl... i am going to miss rachel... i am going to miss so so many ppl... oh and i miss mr adrian... and mr shi... haha... lalalalalalala...
english oral... haha...
but actually i really love God leh... He is so cool la... so so cool... God i love You... I love love You... hehe...
i very luan... very very tired.. i wanna watch da xia...
my heart hurts... but it does not hurt tht much when i give it to God...
ok God i give my heart to you k... You guard my heart ok...
My heart so pain... But not very pain le... God... You must teach me wad to do k... You must lead me... I know you will :)
ahhhhhhhhhhh............ why must there be guys? haha... so attractive...
i miss kai ge... i miss alvin lai... i miss so so many ppl... i am going to miss rachel... i am going to miss so so many ppl... oh and i miss mr adrian... and mr shi... haha... lalalalalalala...
english oral... haha...
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Very long never update le... Syf, exams... Over le... Must start preparing for O'levels..
Why am i updating today? Coz i really feel tht i need to keep my heart (shou xin) liao... After June hols prob going to have lots of changes... I think the one affecting me so far is guitar handover... I am going to miss the kids so so much... haha... (smoking) actually is miss lao xu... Ahhh... We went thru so much together la... haiz... sad case... it will never be the same again...
Hols going to have four c.lit tests... Also good la, a way to study and revise... I think Mr Yow very cute.. haha.. He quite nice la, i think if i listen to him i can do well for chemistry.. i am this kind of ppl... Mr Choo also quite cute... DUnno why also leh... like so crazy lorh... but nvm... maybe like tht i will do better in that few subjects... coz like tht their lessons i wun sleep mah...
aiyoh... i feel very very funny... strange inside... i think guitar is affecting me alot...
Why am i updating today? Coz i really feel tht i need to keep my heart (shou xin) liao... After June hols prob going to have lots of changes... I think the one affecting me so far is guitar handover... I am going to miss the kids so so much... haha... (smoking) actually is miss lao xu... Ahhh... We went thru so much together la... haiz... sad case... it will never be the same again...
Hols going to have four c.lit tests... Also good la, a way to study and revise... I think Mr Yow very cute.. haha.. He quite nice la, i think if i listen to him i can do well for chemistry.. i am this kind of ppl... Mr Choo also quite cute... DUnno why also leh... like so crazy lorh... but nvm... maybe like tht i will do better in that few subjects... coz like tht their lessons i wun sleep mah...
aiyoh... i feel very very funny... strange inside... i think guitar is affecting me alot...
Monday, March 28, 2005
What I learnt during Holy week
It was estimated that the money used in one single year on preparation of war can be used for a thousand plus years for mission works...
Combinations:
Without man and woman --- There was Adam
One man no woman --- There was Eve
Both man and woman --- You and I
Last combination, one woman no man --- Jesus!!
Cool rite... haha...
No matter how advance science is, how great the political powers can get, how powerful military weapons are, how rich you are...
3 things man can NEVER solve:
-Problem of sin
-Problem of sufferings, sorrow
-Problem of death
Psalms 118:24
The hymm "This is the day, this is the day that the Lord has made. That the Lord has made. I will rejoice, I will rejoice and be glad in it and be glad in it......."
Matt 26:30 "When they had sung a hymm, they went out to the Mount of Olives."
I heard Tang mu shi preached on good friday. He mentioned tht this is the 1st time it was recorded that Jesus sang a hymm.. I wonder if the other gospel books mentioned this part, but i only found it in Matthew... And Tang mu shi was saying tht the hymm tht they probably sang was Psalm 118:24, this is the day.
The one day that Jesus became the atonement for our sins. This one day will never be repeated. And after this day, we will be glad and rejoice.
The passover is the shadow of how Jesus is going to die for our sins... During Moses times, the angel pass over the door of the iraelites with the lamb's blood. This symbolises Jesus's blood. Deliverance from sin, just like how Isrealites were delivered from Egypt.
That one day, the wrath of God will be upon Jesus when our sins are on Him. No one colud comfort Jesus as even the comfortor's sin will be upon Jesus. Matt 27:46 "About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?" - which means, "My God, my God,why have You forsaken me?"
That was how much Jesus suffered...
We cannot completely understand, but at least we can have correct partial understandings. Ephesians 3:18 "may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,"
1 John 3:16 "This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers."
The gist of this verse is Christ's sacrifice.
Do we really love God? Do we really know how to love God? If we never sacrifice myself to accomplish others, I have not love. So it is important that Jesus is willing to suffer for me.
Good Friday is important. It allows us to understand(try to), ponder upon Jesus's sufferings.
Suffering of Christ is important.
In the suffering of Christ, not only do we know the love of God, we also establish our love for God, and we follow His example...
HOWEVER!!! The important part is Jesus ROSE from the dead... HE IS ALIVE!!! haha... that is the part tht makes Him so different... That is the part that created an impact in people's lives... I think the disciple would have just went back to their normal lives if they din see Jesus resurrect. The resurrection itself changed the diciples. They recieved the power of the Holy Spirit. And they just go!!! Go and do the will of the Father!!! :)
Combinations:
Without man and woman --- There was Adam
One man no woman --- There was Eve
Both man and woman --- You and I
Last combination, one woman no man --- Jesus!!
Cool rite... haha...
No matter how advance science is, how great the political powers can get, how powerful military weapons are, how rich you are...
3 things man can NEVER solve:
-Problem of sin
-Problem of sufferings, sorrow
-Problem of death
Psalms 118:24
The hymm "This is the day, this is the day that the Lord has made. That the Lord has made. I will rejoice, I will rejoice and be glad in it and be glad in it......."
Matt 26:30 "When they had sung a hymm, they went out to the Mount of Olives."
I heard Tang mu shi preached on good friday. He mentioned tht this is the 1st time it was recorded that Jesus sang a hymm.. I wonder if the other gospel books mentioned this part, but i only found it in Matthew... And Tang mu shi was saying tht the hymm tht they probably sang was Psalm 118:24, this is the day.
The one day that Jesus became the atonement for our sins. This one day will never be repeated. And after this day, we will be glad and rejoice.
The passover is the shadow of how Jesus is going to die for our sins... During Moses times, the angel pass over the door of the iraelites with the lamb's blood. This symbolises Jesus's blood. Deliverance from sin, just like how Isrealites were delivered from Egypt.
That one day, the wrath of God will be upon Jesus when our sins are on Him. No one colud comfort Jesus as even the comfortor's sin will be upon Jesus. Matt 27:46 "About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?" - which means, "My God, my God,why have You forsaken me?"
That was how much Jesus suffered...
We cannot completely understand, but at least we can have correct partial understandings. Ephesians 3:18 "may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,"
1 John 3:16 "This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers."
The gist of this verse is Christ's sacrifice.
Do we really love God? Do we really know how to love God? If we never sacrifice myself to accomplish others, I have not love. So it is important that Jesus is willing to suffer for me.
Good Friday is important. It allows us to understand(try to), ponder upon Jesus's sufferings.
Suffering of Christ is important.
In the suffering of Christ, not only do we know the love of God, we also establish our love for God, and we follow His example...
HOWEVER!!! The important part is Jesus ROSE from the dead... HE IS ALIVE!!! haha... that is the part tht makes Him so different... That is the part that created an impact in people's lives... I think the disciple would have just went back to their normal lives if they din see Jesus resurrect. The resurrection itself changed the diciples. They recieved the power of the Holy Spirit. And they just go!!! Go and do the will of the Father!!! :)
Sunday, March 06, 2005
Aeroplane Analogy
I know an airline company, they are going to give free air tickets one day... You have to get a pass from them... And on the day that they are going to give the tickets, just produce the pass... How do you get the pass? Just believe that they are going to give away the air tickets and you will get the pass... It will entitle you to a free air ticket to any place you wanna go... Everyone who has the pass gets a free ticket? When are they giving it out? Once everyone has heard of this good news...
Ok, I'm going to tell this to all the people i know... after all the pass is unlimited, as long as they believe they will have the pass and they will get the free ticket. This is so exciting!
"Hey I've got something cool to tell you..." "No no... I am too busy too listen." Ok nevermind, he is too busy this time...
"Hey! There is this company giving away free air tickets........" "Yah right, go back to dreamland! There is no such thing" He din believe me...
20... 30... All of them din believe me...
"I've got something to tell you... It may seem unbelievable... But this company...." "REally?? HoW do i Get the pass?" "You believe? You've got it.... Go tell more people. The day is near :)"
"Attention to all! The day has come for Calvary Airways to give away our free air tickets! Those who have the pass, please come forward and collect your free air tickets! Thanks for trusting Calvary Airways! Enjoy Your trip:)"
"What! I dun have the pass!" "Huh? You mean there was really such a thing?" "I wanted to believe, but I had my doubts..." "You mean that was what you wanted to tell me? Oh my! Was i really that busy?"
It is my duty to tell you this good news... Whether you believe it or not is your choice... Yes it is just soo easy, believe and you get the pass to a place where you spent eternity with God! Is it so hard for people to do... In this analogy, what is at stake is just an air ticket... However in reality, it is our soul...
I will tell the world... Again and again... 1st time they dun believe me, i will try again... I've got the pass... And i know so much...
Hey... What do you all think about this analogy? Anyway to improve it? Or is it not good at all?
Ok, I'm going to tell this to all the people i know... after all the pass is unlimited, as long as they believe they will have the pass and they will get the free ticket. This is so exciting!
"Hey I've got something cool to tell you..." "No no... I am too busy too listen." Ok nevermind, he is too busy this time...
"Hey! There is this company giving away free air tickets........" "Yah right, go back to dreamland! There is no such thing" He din believe me...
20... 30... All of them din believe me...
"I've got something to tell you... It may seem unbelievable... But this company...." "REally?? HoW do i Get the pass?" "You believe? You've got it.... Go tell more people. The day is near :)"
"Attention to all! The day has come for Calvary Airways to give away our free air tickets! Those who have the pass, please come forward and collect your free air tickets! Thanks for trusting Calvary Airways! Enjoy Your trip:)"
"What! I dun have the pass!" "Huh? You mean there was really such a thing?" "I wanted to believe, but I had my doubts..." "You mean that was what you wanted to tell me? Oh my! Was i really that busy?"
It is my duty to tell you this good news... Whether you believe it or not is your choice... Yes it is just soo easy, believe and you get the pass to a place where you spent eternity with God! Is it so hard for people to do... In this analogy, what is at stake is just an air ticket... However in reality, it is our soul...
I will tell the world... Again and again... 1st time they dun believe me, i will try again... I've got the pass... And i know so much...
Hey... What do you all think about this analogy? Anyway to improve it? Or is it not good at all?
Sunday, January 09, 2005
worldly praise
So tired... Have been doing so many things for the whole week... Study, sweeping the classroom, guitar, and other stuffs... I never really cared if ppl know and appreciate wad I am doing... But... It doesn't means i dun mind being left out... Sometimes i will keep asking ppl to praise me... But someone said before tht worldly praise leads to pride... Yah, it may be true... But to me, i need to be sure tht wad i am doing is of satisfactory standard... So sometimes i was actually very encouraged when si kai ge or some other funny ppl tell me i did a great job in doing something... It motivates me to continue doing some things, and even do it better if i can... But i found out tht, if i rely too much on all these affirmation, one day when it stop, i will stop also... The thing is, sometimes i am just not very sure in wad position am i doing some things... Sounds very vague huh? But it is not very important...
I just realised today tht i must not care about whether ppl recognise wad i do, or realised wad i do... Wad is important is as i do all these things, my heart is focus on God... Wadeva it is, i know tht God sees it, He recognise it... Thts all tht mater... haha... So worldy praise wun affect me so much le... But i will still be very happy de....
I just realised today tht i must not care about whether ppl recognise wad i do, or realised wad i do... Wad is important is as i do all these things, my heart is focus on God... Wadeva it is, i know tht God sees it, He recognise it... Thts all tht mater... haha... So worldy praise wun affect me so much le... But i will still be very happy de....
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
Pray
God... As the people suffer in eternal burning fire now, as the souls are lost... May Your mercy be upon those who are alive... May Your glory be magnified in this world... Father... I may not understand why all these are happening... Wars, terrorists, earthquakes... Are all these happening because we have forgot that the end is coming? Are all these happening because many have lost the urgency to spread the gospel? In America, in Iraq... We din care... But now it hit S.E Asia... God... May Your Holy Spirit fill Your church, Your children... May we spread Your word, the gospel... Like never before... May Your children rise up... May You use us... And all these, according to Your will, not ours... Father, it hurts... It hurts to see so many people dying without knowing You... It hurts to see people dying without accepting You... It hurts even more to see people alive and well rejecting Your Name... I dunno wad i can do Father... I really dunno... I wanna runaway... But i can't... I promised to be Your faithful servant... You have given me the passion of evangelising... You have place ideas into my head, my heart, my soul... But Father, i really dunno wad to do... I want to see You now... I want to fill Your presence... I dun wanna be a cry baby... I wanna be strong... To know what to do... You know how all these things can affect me... God... You know... And You know how tired i am... Father... May Your strength and wisdom be upon me... I need the strength to complete my homework... God, I wanna glorify Your name... I wanna be a good testimony... I need to be a good testimony... I wanna spread Your word... I wanna be strong, spritually... God... May Your comfort be upon these people... Even when many are not Your child yet... God, speake to them... Holy Spirit, work in their hearts... Provide them with what they need, not only the materials, but the love the need so badly... May the lost souls be saved... May they see Your power through the many events that is happening... In Jesus Name i pray... Amen!
The events... They affects me... So much... Izzit money that they need? Yes... They want it, they have to build their homes... But so what if they can live for another 10,50 years... When one day, they will not be reunited with God... When they finds out tht they need to face judgement... When they finds out tht they have been rejecting a God who have given them chances to know Him... It will be too late coz they will be suffering much more then what they are suffering now... Pray...
The events... They affects me... So much... Izzit money that they need? Yes... They want it, they have to build their homes... But so what if they can live for another 10,50 years... When one day, they will not be reunited with God... When they finds out tht they need to face judgement... When they finds out tht they have been rejecting a God who have given them chances to know Him... It will be too late coz they will be suffering much more then what they are suffering now... Pray...
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Christmas blessings...
Haha... Today is monday... So tired... I think i won't be able to finish my homework... But i din wanna make my teacher upset... So later i will do a little k...
Christmas just over... But my heart is still burning and burning... Hehe... I thank God for all the blessings i recieved... So nice... I got a book on depression... A candle with a verse one... A study Bible!!!!!! and 2 marshmallow cushion... So nice... I say i like tht nice nice cushion then my sisters give me... Ke Li and Rachel give me 1 pig... Wan Ling give me one dog... So exciting... Then i like the cards...
I like words of affirmation... In a way... Recently... Or this year... i change in a way... i dunno izzit becoz of the way i express myself... I was thinking do i seems to be too proud? Hey but actually i am not... As in... I say i li hai is because i know i not very li hai... I say i good because i not very good... Then in a way ppl laugh mah... Then deep inside i know tht i am not hao lian... But recently i felt tht it is not how i feels tht really matters all the time... Sometimes ppl may just interpret it differently... Haiz...
Tht day after the Christmas service i went to batam... Haha... Nothing much actually... But Nope... I went to a malay service on sunday... Suppose to go to an english one but then late le... so i say i was thinking why not just go see a malay service la... i mean i just wanna see see lorh... They have their service in a hotel ballroom... And guess wad... there are just so many malays there... the ballroom is almost filled... at least the seats la... then wow... haha... i dun understand wad they singing... but when the pastor preaching i sort of understood... i think tht is the power of God... haha... so cool...
So wonderful to see malays worshiping God... Hey... Is Jesus k... You know how cool it is not... I see how wonderful God is... Many times we live in sg, we just limit ourselves and God here... When we go out there... we see how when men have faith, God uses us to do so many things... We see indians, malays and the china ppl... they are all children of God... It all strikes me so much... You know i was thinking... Why are we still here when we accept Christ... Not beacause He wants us to love Him here, serve Him here, fellowship here... We can do these in heaven... Why? Why must we face trials... To mould us... For wad? Hello... It is to serve the non christians here... To witness to them... We need to be onward Christ soldiers... To fight the battle against sars... NO... Agains bird flu... NO... Against Satan... wad is sars? wad is bird flu? Death... Wad is satan? Eternal burning fire... God created me for a purpose... By grace i am saved... And i thank Him so much... Wad else can i ask for... But for His grace to be upon so many other lost souls around... Oh my...
AHh.... haha... I wanna witness for Him!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna obey!!!!!!!!!
Christmas just over... But my heart is still burning and burning... Hehe... I thank God for all the blessings i recieved... So nice... I got a book on depression... A candle with a verse one... A study Bible!!!!!! and 2 marshmallow cushion... So nice... I say i like tht nice nice cushion then my sisters give me... Ke Li and Rachel give me 1 pig... Wan Ling give me one dog... So exciting... Then i like the cards...
I like words of affirmation... In a way... Recently... Or this year... i change in a way... i dunno izzit becoz of the way i express myself... I was thinking do i seems to be too proud? Hey but actually i am not... As in... I say i li hai is because i know i not very li hai... I say i good because i not very good... Then in a way ppl laugh mah... Then deep inside i know tht i am not hao lian... But recently i felt tht it is not how i feels tht really matters all the time... Sometimes ppl may just interpret it differently... Haiz...
Tht day after the Christmas service i went to batam... Haha... Nothing much actually... But Nope... I went to a malay service on sunday... Suppose to go to an english one but then late le... so i say i was thinking why not just go see a malay service la... i mean i just wanna see see lorh... They have their service in a hotel ballroom... And guess wad... there are just so many malays there... the ballroom is almost filled... at least the seats la... then wow... haha... i dun understand wad they singing... but when the pastor preaching i sort of understood... i think tht is the power of God... haha... so cool...
So wonderful to see malays worshiping God... Hey... Is Jesus k... You know how cool it is not... I see how wonderful God is... Many times we live in sg, we just limit ourselves and God here... When we go out there... we see how when men have faith, God uses us to do so many things... We see indians, malays and the china ppl... they are all children of God... It all strikes me so much... You know i was thinking... Why are we still here when we accept Christ... Not beacause He wants us to love Him here, serve Him here, fellowship here... We can do these in heaven... Why? Why must we face trials... To mould us... For wad? Hello... It is to serve the non christians here... To witness to them... We need to be onward Christ soldiers... To fight the battle against sars... NO... Agains bird flu... NO... Against Satan... wad is sars? wad is bird flu? Death... Wad is satan? Eternal burning fire... God created me for a purpose... By grace i am saved... And i thank Him so much... Wad else can i ask for... But for His grace to be upon so many other lost souls around... Oh my...
AHh.... haha... I wanna witness for Him!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna obey!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Haha... So funny...
Very tired... i think i really very clumsy... very slow... very easy lose focus one... will just say the wrong things... keli i call shi hui... shi hui i call keli... dunno wad i thinking also... then just so tired...
Recently very tired... Holiday not like holiday... Monday to sunday almost everyday in school... Wed abit free... But then november busy bout the camp and farewell... Now is the two christmas event coming up... that day morning guitar prac, afternoon yf christmas prac, night the church skit prac... then is december... going to school reopen liao... need to chiong homework... school reopen straight away test... Math test... Then consecutive 3 c.lit test... Ss assignment... History Mao Ze Dong... Chemistry... Physics... Chinese still got 2 books to read... Ahhhhh... Feel like fainting...
Then emotionally can't really cope well... Quite a number of things going on which affects me quite alot... Ahhhhhh... Feel like crying...
Cried... But hor... God carries me thru all these hard times... "You carried me, through all my trials... You carried me... When I was troubled and alone... When my strength had gone... Couldn't get along without You... You carried me... So I wouldn't stumble... You carried me... Just when I needed someone there... You would be a friend... And I reach the end because You carried me..."
Yup... He carried me when i was tired... Me very tired now... So I know He is carrying me... And hor... Today someone was there beside us... My silly brother Alvin... Did something so silly... Make me laugh so hard... Haha... I think I almost fell off Jesus back... But I am so safe when Jesus is there... Really very funny leh... Haha... Alvin never fails to make me laugh...
But I am still tired... Just feel like typing something nice here today... REally very funny... HAHAHAHAHA... HAHAHAHAHAHA... Very hard for me to describe one...
Haha... Very scary... I dream today... I was taking a 5-10mins nap... Then i dreamt tht si kai ge scold me... then i ran away from church... haha... then i wake up jia mian suddenly appear in front of me... scary rite... i tell alot of ppl they all diao me... not scary meh.... Recently i keep dreaming... I dream of school reopen, then i haven't finish homework... Haha... Thts why yu han say i too stress liao... Then alvin thought me how to destress... HAHAHAHAHAHahahahahahahahaha... SO funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok... thts all for now... i need to do my ss and history thingy... need to find Mao Ze Dong!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh!
Recently very tired... Holiday not like holiday... Monday to sunday almost everyday in school... Wed abit free... But then november busy bout the camp and farewell... Now is the two christmas event coming up... that day morning guitar prac, afternoon yf christmas prac, night the church skit prac... then is december... going to school reopen liao... need to chiong homework... school reopen straight away test... Math test... Then consecutive 3 c.lit test... Ss assignment... History Mao Ze Dong... Chemistry... Physics... Chinese still got 2 books to read... Ahhhhh... Feel like fainting...
Then emotionally can't really cope well... Quite a number of things going on which affects me quite alot... Ahhhhhh... Feel like crying...
Cried... But hor... God carries me thru all these hard times... "You carried me, through all my trials... You carried me... When I was troubled and alone... When my strength had gone... Couldn't get along without You... You carried me... So I wouldn't stumble... You carried me... Just when I needed someone there... You would be a friend... And I reach the end because You carried me..."
Yup... He carried me when i was tired... Me very tired now... So I know He is carrying me... And hor... Today someone was there beside us... My silly brother Alvin... Did something so silly... Make me laugh so hard... Haha... I think I almost fell off Jesus back... But I am so safe when Jesus is there... Really very funny leh... Haha... Alvin never fails to make me laugh...
But I am still tired... Just feel like typing something nice here today... REally very funny... HAHAHAHAHA... HAHAHAHAHAHA... Very hard for me to describe one...
Haha... Very scary... I dream today... I was taking a 5-10mins nap... Then i dreamt tht si kai ge scold me... then i ran away from church... haha... then i wake up jia mian suddenly appear in front of me... scary rite... i tell alot of ppl they all diao me... not scary meh.... Recently i keep dreaming... I dream of school reopen, then i haven't finish homework... Haha... Thts why yu han say i too stress liao... Then alvin thought me how to destress... HAHAHAHAHAHahahahahahahahaha... SO funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok... thts all for now... i need to do my ss and history thingy... need to find Mao Ze Dong!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh!
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