We must learn to let go.. Please... There is nothing to hold on anymore.. Or do you mean history?? Holding on to history.. i tell myself i need to look forward, i shall not dwell in history anymore.. easier said then done..
i am having a hard hard time.. a very very hard one.. miss 0601.. really wanna keep the spirit going.. but... it is not possible.. not at all.. then the more i spend time with the 0601 ppl, the more i can't pull out of it.. and the emotions get stronger and stronger each day.. the disappoinments, the sadness... and when i see how 0602 now tries very hard to bond with each other.. how they are trying to open up, to be true to one another.. and how much i dun dare to put in my emotions.. i feel so bad.. i wanna love them... in fact i do love them, individually.. but i really dun dare to love the class.. i love 0601.. first time i really love a class, cry becoz of a class... and i wanna do the same for 0602, but i dun dare... it hurts.. really.. so torn apart..
why can ppl seem so indifferent.. i am emotional??? too emotional?? my new class got 8 time-tables.. isn't it a lot also?? and gp tutor change, no more mr tong.. econs tutor change, no more mr nandwani.. no KI, no more mr seah and ms ng.. heart sinks..
The world changes.. But one thing i know.. God never change..
God i need you.. my little heart is wounded... broken into pieces.. i need you to mend it.. i need your comfort.. i need to use this heart to love again.. God.. guard my heart..