was so sad yesterday... Cried and cried... Felt abandoned by the whole world... I choose not to talk to God... Felt so helpless... Why am i going thru all these? I browsed through my whole list of no. and couldn't find someone to talk to.... "Hello, is ??? there? no? ok thanks..." most of them are not at home.....
Finally, i decided to call Dianne... We talked, and shared... She shared with me her experiences... I din noe she went thru so much things which i am going thru now... Learnt so much frm her... Felt God talking to me thru this sister... He reminded me tht i need to get back to Him... I was so sorry, i knelt and prayed... He dried my tears and renewed my heart... He give me strength again!!!
I love Him... Because He first loves me... who cares if i dun have a boyfriend to love me? who cares if i am going to be a nun nxt time? As long as i have God it is ok... He provides me with wad is best for me... And I will trust in Him... Even during times when i feel down... LOVE HIM SO much!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"The Lord is my strength and my shield; in Him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song i give thanks to HIM." Psalms 28:7
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Friday, July 23, 2004
so funny
Your Existing Situation
Sensitive; needs esthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm intimacy.
Your Stress Sources
Has lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. Feels overtaxed and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground and still pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity. This subjects her to intolerable pressure from which she wants to escape, but she cannot bring herself to make the necessary decision. As a result she remains firmly involved in the problem and can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it--he cannot leave it alone and feels she will only be at peace when she has reached her objective.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity.
Circumstances are restrictive and hampering, forcing her to forgo all joys and pleasures for the time being.
Your Desired Objective
Hopes that ties of affection and good-fellowship will bring release and contentment. Her own need for approval makes her ready to be of help to others and in exchange she wants warmth and understanding. Open to new ideas and possibilities which she hopes will prove fruitful and interesting.
Your Actual Problem
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.
Your Actual Problem #2
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She reacts by seeking outside confirmation of her ability and value in order to bolster her self-esteem. Inclined to blame others so that she may shift the blame from herself. Anxiously searching for solutions and prone to compulsive inhibitions and compulsive desires.
Sensitive; needs esthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm intimacy.
Your Stress Sources
Has lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. Feels overtaxed and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground and still pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity. This subjects her to intolerable pressure from which she wants to escape, but she cannot bring herself to make the necessary decision. As a result she remains firmly involved in the problem and can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it--he cannot leave it alone and feels she will only be at peace when she has reached her objective.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity.
Circumstances are restrictive and hampering, forcing her to forgo all joys and pleasures for the time being.
Your Desired Objective
Hopes that ties of affection and good-fellowship will bring release and contentment. Her own need for approval makes her ready to be of help to others and in exchange she wants warmth and understanding. Open to new ideas and possibilities which she hopes will prove fruitful and interesting.
Your Actual Problem
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.
Your Actual Problem #2
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She reacts by seeking outside confirmation of her ability and value in order to bolster her self-esteem. Inclined to blame others so that she may shift the blame from herself. Anxiously searching for solutions and prone to compulsive inhibitions and compulsive desires.
crazy
i think i am totally crazy... I dunno how to handle things... I dunno how to handle my emotions... I dunno how to handle my feelings... I feel like crying........ And sometimes i just laugh...... when i am not happy..... i suddenly get very high... i totally have no idea wad i am thinking..... No idea......... U know how irritating it is when u dunno wad to do........ i wanna tell God... But something is wrong somewhere........... I dunno wad................. suddenly just cried.... dunno wad happen.... ppl think i am scary... yah this is wad i am...
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Assurance of God
I was feeling stress... Wanted to talk to ppl but i can't..... Felt depressed.... Discouraged.... Totally stress out...
But God always assures me tht He will not leave me alone like tht... He may not allow me to talk to someone i wanna talk to But He always give me someone special to pick me up...
Hehe... So happy...... Although still stress out... Dunno wad to do also... But i am going to focus on God... Coz i wanna Love Him more than anything else in this world...
But God always assures me tht He will not leave me alone like tht... He may not allow me to talk to someone i wanna talk to But He always give me someone special to pick me up...
Hehe... So happy...... Although still stress out... Dunno wad to do also... But i am going to focus on God... Coz i wanna Love Him more than anything else in this world...
Monday, July 19, 2004
unique :)
U never know how much it means to to be called unique...
Being special to someone...
Being treasured by someone...
Someone who is unique...
hehe... not only unique to God, but unique to a person :)
so happy....
Being special to someone...
Being treasured by someone...
Someone who is unique...
hehe... not only unique to God, but unique to a person :)
so happy....
Our Heart for GOD!!!
I want to Love You... I want to see Your face... I want to Love You more...
Sometimes i think... Life is so fragile... We never know when we will die... May be the next second, next year, 5 years later, 15 years later... We never know... Our days on earth are numbered... And days on earth are preparations for our time wif God eternity... And everyday is precious... Every day is for God... Every second... We were made for God...
Someone said "if we passed a day w/o knowing God more, w/o loving Him deeper, we have wasted the day!"
It is true isn't it... Are we going to waste the day??? It is scary how u look around you and you see the ppl around u turning upside down... Are we going to obey God and let Him use us... He loves us to the extent He is willing to die for us on the cross then live w/o us!!!!! He could have saved Himself - but He couldn't have saved you!!!!!!! I love Him... Forever!!!!!!!!! With all my heart, all my soul and all my strength!!!!!! ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sometimes i think... Life is so fragile... We never know when we will die... May be the next second, next year, 5 years later, 15 years later... We never know... Our days on earth are numbered... And days on earth are preparations for our time wif God eternity... And everyday is precious... Every day is for God... Every second... We were made for God...
Someone said "if we passed a day w/o knowing God more, w/o loving Him deeper, we have wasted the day!"
It is true isn't it... Are we going to waste the day??? It is scary how u look around you and you see the ppl around u turning upside down... Are we going to obey God and let Him use us... He loves us to the extent He is willing to die for us on the cross then live w/o us!!!!! He could have saved Himself - but He couldn't have saved you!!!!!!! I love Him... Forever!!!!!!!!! With all my heart, all my soul and all my strength!!!!!! ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
So excited...
So exciting... Someone came back to school... So cute, so exciting.... lalala... so many things happen suddenly... so excited about everything... tests... so stress... but very exciting also...!!!!!!!!
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