Pray

God... As the people suffer in eternal burning fire now, as the souls are lost... May Your mercy be upon those who are alive... May Your glory be magnified in this world... Father... I may not understand why all these are happening... Wars, terrorists, earthquakes... Are all these happening because we have forgot that the end is coming? Are all these happening because many have lost the urgency to spread the gospel? In America, in Iraq... We din care... But now it hit S.E Asia... God... May Your Holy Spirit fill Your church, Your children... May we spread Your word, the gospel... Like never before... May Your children rise up... May You use us... And all these, according to Your will, not ours... Father, it hurts... It hurts to see so many people dying without knowing You... It hurts to see people dying without accepting You... It hurts even more to see people alive and well rejecting Your Name... I dunno wad i can do Father... I really dunno... I wanna runaway... But i can't... I promised to be Your faithful servant... You have given me the passion of evangelising... You have place ideas into my head, my heart, my soul... But Father, i really dunno wad to do... I want to see You now... I want to fill Your presence... I dun wanna be a cry baby... I wanna be strong... To know what to do... You know how all these things can affect me... God... You know... And You know how tired i am... Father... May Your strength and wisdom be upon me... I need the strength to complete my homework... God, I wanna glorify Your name... I wanna be a good testimony... I need to be a good testimony... I wanna spread Your word... I wanna be strong, spritually... God... May Your comfort be upon these people... Even when many are not Your child yet... God, speake to them... Holy Spirit, work in their hearts... Provide them with what they need, not only the materials, but the love the need so badly... May the lost souls be saved... May they see Your power through the many events that is happening... In Jesus Name i pray... Amen!

The events... They affects me... So much... Izzit money that they need? Yes... They want it, they have to build their homes... But so what if they can live for another 10,50 years... When one day, they will not be reunited with God... When they finds out tht they need to face judgement... When they finds out tht they have been rejecting a God who have given them chances to know Him... It will be too late coz they will be suffering much more then what they are suffering now... Pray...

Christmas blessings...

Haha... Today is monday... So tired... I think i won't be able to finish my homework... But i din wanna make my teacher upset... So later i will do a little k...
Christmas just over... But my heart is still burning and burning... Hehe... I thank God for all the blessings i recieved... So nice... I got a book on depression... A candle with a verse one... A study Bible!!!!!! and 2 marshmallow cushion... So nice... I say i like tht nice nice cushion then my sisters give me... Ke Li and Rachel give me 1 pig... Wan Ling give me one dog... So exciting... Then i like the cards...
I like words of affirmation... In a way... Recently... Or this year... i change in a way... i dunno izzit becoz of the way i express myself... I was thinking do i seems to be too proud? Hey but actually i am not... As in... I say i li hai is because i know i not very li hai... I say i good because i not very good... Then in a way ppl laugh mah... Then deep inside i know tht i am not hao lian... But recently i felt tht it is not how i feels tht really matters all the time... Sometimes ppl may just interpret it differently... Haiz...

Tht day after the Christmas service i went to batam... Haha... Nothing much actually... But Nope... I went to a malay service on sunday... Suppose to go to an english one but then late le... so i say i was thinking why not just go see a malay service la... i mean i just wanna see see lorh... They have their service in a hotel ballroom... And guess wad... there are just so many malays there... the ballroom is almost filled... at least the seats la... then wow... haha... i dun understand wad they singing... but when the pastor preaching i sort of understood... i think tht is the power of God... haha... so cool...

So wonderful to see malays worshiping God... Hey... Is Jesus k... You know how cool it is not... I see how wonderful God is... Many times we live in sg, we just limit ourselves and God here... When we go out there... we see how when men have faith, God uses us to do so many things... We see indians, malays and the china ppl... they are all children of God... It all strikes me so much... You know i was thinking... Why are we still here when we accept Christ... Not beacause He wants us to love Him here, serve Him here, fellowship here... We can do these in heaven... Why? Why must we face trials... To mould us... For wad? Hello... It is to serve the non christians here... To witness to them... We need to be onward Christ soldiers... To fight the battle against sars... NO... Agains bird flu... NO... Against Satan... wad is sars? wad is bird flu? Death... Wad is satan? Eternal burning fire... God created me for a purpose... By grace i am saved... And i thank Him so much... Wad else can i ask for... But for His grace to be upon so many other lost souls around... Oh my...

AHh.... haha... I wanna witness for Him!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna obey!!!!!!!!!

Haha... So funny...

Very tired... i think i really very clumsy... very slow... very easy lose focus one... will just say the wrong things... keli i call shi hui... shi hui i call keli... dunno wad i thinking also... then just so tired...
Recently very tired... Holiday not like holiday... Monday to sunday almost everyday in school... Wed abit free... But then november busy bout the camp and farewell... Now is the two christmas event coming up... that day morning guitar prac, afternoon yf christmas prac, night the church skit prac... then is december... going to school reopen liao... need to chiong homework... school reopen straight away test... Math test... Then consecutive 3 c.lit test... Ss assignment... History Mao Ze Dong... Chemistry... Physics... Chinese still got 2 books to read... Ahhhhh... Feel like fainting...
Then emotionally can't really cope well... Quite a number of things going on which affects me quite alot... Ahhhhhh... Feel like crying...
Cried... But hor... God carries me thru all these hard times... "You carried me, through all my trials... You carried me... When I was troubled and alone... When my strength had gone... Couldn't get along without You... You carried me... So I wouldn't stumble... You carried me... Just when I needed someone there... You would be a friend... And I reach the end because You carried me..."
Yup... He carried me when i was tired... Me very tired now... So I know He is carrying me... And hor... Today someone was there beside us... My silly brother Alvin... Did something so silly... Make me laugh so hard... Haha... I think I almost fell off Jesus back... But I am so safe when Jesus is there... Really very funny leh... Haha... Alvin never fails to make me laugh...
But I am still tired... Just feel like typing something nice here today... REally very funny... HAHAHAHAHA... HAHAHAHAHAHA... Very hard for me to describe one...
Haha... Very scary... I dream today... I was taking a 5-10mins nap... Then i dreamt tht si kai ge scold me... then i ran away from church... haha... then i wake up jia mian suddenly appear in front of me... scary rite... i tell alot of ppl they all diao me... not scary meh.... Recently i keep dreaming... I dream of school reopen, then i haven't finish homework... Haha... Thts why yu han say i too stress liao... Then alvin thought me how to destress... HAHAHAHAHAHahahahahahahahaha... SO funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok... thts all for now... i need to do my ss and history thingy... need to find Mao Ze Dong!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh!

Dun read plz...

dun read... really... i am upset... just need a place to type out my feelings... prob there wun be any human being from now onwards to really sit down and listen to me crap... feel kind of sad... but i dun wan anybody to know... really... i dun wan them to know tht i am sad... i feel weird inside... very very... can anybody tell me wad is all this about... i just needed to type about it... seems like it is not wad i tot... some things can't be controlled rite? forget about it then...