"I've got a Band 3..." "No you are a Band 1."
It doesn't matter how much his friends told him that he has supported them, and he truly deserves the Band 1. But becoz the Paper says he had a Band 3, everything else doesn't matter...
When did we start letting paper define us?
"The paper became soo strong in defining what you are suppose to do.. So much so that it becomes more important than your true self." It is very damaging...
Gifted... Special... Express... Normal... Abnormal... Subnormal... Why give these particular names?
"Hi this is my daughter.. She is from Cambridge.. She is doing her masters in Chemistry this year. Hi this is my son.. He is TALL.." I cannot even begin to imagine how it feels.. "Wa I am dead... I can't teach them becoz I was not from these colleges and I am not as good as these people... It doesn't matter how much i know inside..."
Why is your self-worth dependent upon these?
When you go to a friend, and you are pretty happy but you know your friend is depress... "Hey... are you ok?" "No...I am really depress.." "Er.. Ok.. Don't be sad.. Don't be depress.. Don't be stress.. Don't cry.. It's ok.. Don't be angry.." What is our solution to someone's emotional problems? Don't... Becoz if you do that, and if i see it, i need to sit there for hours to listen to you.. And i will have to get off the academic train with you while everyone is moving on.. Everyone is moving on, and i am here.. with you... so Don't...
These few points hit me so hard... I never really understood fully what it means that your self-worth is in God alone... Like... Nothing else really matters... Like... there is no need to angst over result.. the paper does not reflect who you are.. nothing else should define your own self-worth.. What am i worth? I am worth so much that the almighty God of Heaven and Earth, He sees me so precious that He sent His one and only begotten Son to die for my sins.. Still, I really cannot fully understand what it means... All i know is that it means that i should not see anything else more important than glorifying this God who loves me so much... It means that the papers are not the ones defining me.. It means that all i want to do is to please Him... And if studying hard pleases Him, i will study...
I dunno what it means to most people.. It may seem to be a confined life.. But you cannot even begin to imagine the immense joy being the child of the Most High God and pleasing Him.. It is like a young daughter trying to make her Daddy smile..
I am going to go through life doing what i like... What i love... Pleasing my God...
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers." Romans 8:28-29
I have grown to love this brother even more... Not the love that many other think is.. It is this love that grows becoz of Christ.. It is how i see everytime he teaches, he teaches with God in mind. How he brings across the love of Christ in such a way that i know it is not him loving, but Christ loving us through Him..
No... I am not hua xin... :)