Meaningless

I am trying to learn.. Enjoying the presense of God alone.. Not being surrounded by people..
I dun feel like talking much anymore.. People who are quiet gets accepted into the society too.. People who are quiet serves God as well..
When you speak, you make assumptions.. You assume tht the person you are talking to understands what you mean.. Many times, or maybe all the time, the only have partial understanding.. Sometimes people dun show they dun understand.. In fact, they probably dunno that they have misunderstood..
I dun wanna be misunderstood.. I dun wanna be labeled as someone i am not.. I dun wanna talk anymore.. People associate you with their interpretations of what you say.. I am tired..
Thinking of what to say so that ppl wun get the wrong msg, thinking of how to say..
I feel like withdrawing from a lot of stuffs.. But there are responsibilities..Can i not be responsible? But if you are not responsible for once.. Ppl wun have confidence in you again.. Does it matter to me? So what if it doesn't matter to me now? How would i know if it not important to me next time? How would i know if there is a next time? And when they have no confidence in you, will what you say have creditbility? But.. no.. you are not going to say anything le... So does it matter?
All talk, all action.. All talk, no action.. No talk, all action.. No talk, no action..
What is the meaning of being yourself? Who is yourself? Is there only one yourself? I simply cannot fit in to the communities well.. So is there something wrong with myself? Or am i not being myself? Then do you seek to fit in to the communities well or do you seek to be yourself? Or is there many side to yourself, you just have to find the right side to face the different communities? So does it mean there is more than one yourself? Is this what you call identity crisis? But what is an identity? Are you suppose to have diff kind of identities as you appear in diff places?
Seeking identity in Christ.. I only have God now.. The One who will not misunderstands me, even if i dun understands myself.. The One who wun misinterpret me.. Coz i dun communicate with Him using words.. He sees the heart.. The only One.. Can i go back to Him?
Today.. the crow flew pass me 4 times.. It flew over my shoulders.. I ask God if He had something to tell me.. I din get my answer..