Beach

Went to the beach today after choir prac... Hehe..
Who was there? My papa, mama, didi, Ah Ma, 5 Gu, 5 Gu Zhang, Ah Mei Jie, En En, 4 Gu, Sally Jie, xiao shu, xiao shen, si min, si ying, our three maids... 18 of us.. haha.. and this is only 4 out of 12 family, erm actually got 16 family... haha...
Opps.. tht wasn't the main reason why i type this blog.. i usually dun update on this kind of things.. haha.. okok.. i will start on wad i wanna share about..
My Ah Ma is 80 this year.. And i really love her so soo sooo much... wad happen today? She decided to go down to the beach and soak herself in water.. (swimming if u would call it??)... the waves was *large?*.. and after hesistating for dunno how long.. she decided to go down.. so she pass her bag to me and walk down.. dun be silly.. how would i allow her to go down herself? i walk with her.. it was quite exciting.. about 10+ years ago, our big family use to go to the beach together often, and we will play in the water together, with my Ah Ma.. she was 60+,70 then... i guess she just wanted to swim again.. now swimming pool cannot wear home clothes le so she haven't been able to soak herself in water (taking into considerations her body condition as well).. but i know she yearns to be in the water again, she shared with me before (not explicitly though).. many times when we bring her to the beach, she wouldn't wanna go down to the water.. think she scared (body conditions and old age i guess).. But this time.. she wanna go down.. so i held her hands..
As we walk down, i signalled to my dad who was in the water, asking him to come and help my ah ma (i couldn't help my ah ma any further, i was wearing jeans and a quite nice top with covered shoes and socks..) as my ah ma walk further down,i called my brother over so that he can walk down with her..(he wearing shorts..)... i stood down, and watch them walk further down, then i see my dad and my bro trying to hold my ah ma, getting her to sit down on the sand.. my my, the next moment the waves come and she fell back.. after a while she turned over (meaning her face was facing the ground).. the waves was too strong.. i panic and i just couldn't stand watching the way my dad and my bro held my ah ma.. although she was smiling (i think she was enjoying herself) but i still dun feel save watching her in my dad and bro arms.. i took off my shoes and socks, turn back to get someone to carry my ah ma's bag.. it was then tht i realised a lot of ppl was looking at my ah ma, apparently finding her admirable? amusing?? i dunno.. but my gu gu(s) was asking me to ask ah ma come up, very paiseh.. i pass the bag to one of them and rush down to the waters..i held my ah ma up, make sure she was alright.. then saw the smile on her face.. then suddenly, my xiao shu came down and held my ah ma up, asking her to come up quickly, "very paiseh leh"... then they pull her up with my daddy.. i was holding her hands.. after tht when going up, my xiao shu walk away quite angrily, then my gu gu came down to say tht it was very paiseh..
i stood there.. feeling a bit weird.. i wondered how my ah ma is feeling.. but i held her, told her it is alright.. she was still smiling, but it was a bit diff.. i got her clothes and stuffs, and walk with her to bathe.. barefooted, we walk, i ask her if she had fun, she said yes and smiled.. my jeans was heavy, but i was happy.. i walk in with her to the cubicle (ya, see her bathe.. haha..).. i told her she just had water baptism.. i told her i prayed just now, and she now belongs to Jesus! she laugh.. and she say, "aiya, just wanted to go down and wash away the past only".. Oh my.. haha.. i told her " ya lor, this is baptism lorh.." then i told her how happy i will be when one day she really calls God her saviour, and then i will fang(4) xin(1).. (all these convo is in teochew.. haha)..
i stood in the cubicle, was splashed by the water, seems to be showers of blessings on me.. i treasure every moment spent with my ah ma.. i know she is happy too.. and i know how much she loves this grand daughter of hers..
i guess we show love to my ah ma differently.. but sometimes we care more about how the world look at us more than we care about the person we want to show love to..
i really love my ah ma.. i am not sure if she recieved the salvation anot.. i will continue praying.. for her and for my family..
she is 80 yrs old.. how many more days, months, or years do i have with her? would she see me get married? would she get to carry my child? or would i go before her?
just wanna share this with you guys who happen to see this entry.. treasure the time you have to spent with your love ones.. only with God, we'll then be able to spent eternity with each other, in love.. I guess the reason why i tend to love so many ppl is becoz of God.. my character also maybe, but then again, i am created and mould by Him.. hehe.. He is my Father.. Oh!! Happy Father's Day again to my Heavenly Father!
hehe.. i went with my papa to eat dinner with my ah ma, didi, and maid at night.. actually a lot of things happen today.. maybe i will share more again the next entry... hehe :)
remember, show love while you can.. :)