something that i realised about myself... about my attitude towards going for an exam.. i was just wondering what should i say if ppl asked me if i studied or not... i mean i guess when face with exams, ppl will usually study... is just whether the revision is completed or not... i guess one can never truly define what it means by finish studying.. "you can never finish studying..." haha... thts what a lot of ppl say... well i agree... especially for a rather insecure person like me... haha... talking about insecurity, i rmb how i was so upset with Mr Tong just the other day coz i felt insecure about my GP... but i realised today that it is alright to not study finish you see... the important thing that i wanna strive to achieve is to enter the exam hall knowing that my confidence is not in all that i studied but in the God whom i trust... and with that, i should feel safe and secure...
"You're not made for the As..." Mr Tong told me the other day... not becoz he thinks that i am not capable enough... all he wants to let me know is i do not belong to the world... i am not governed by the world's values... i belong to Jesus... and all He requires of me is to work hard and go into the exam hall trusting that He will be by my side as i do the exam... and I am not made for the As... If God wants me to be at the top, He will place me at the top... in fact, it doesn't even matter... What matters is whether i pass on the love He has given me...
Hehee... that was a small part of what i learnt from ah tong the other day... he was explaining to me an online game he was playing when i was taking a break from the studying... it is fun seeing someone like him getting all excited over computer games.. oh... and he allowed SOT to be my 2nd home! i dunno if it is normal... but he is such a nice brother that i wish i can intro him to all my friends... hee... just like how i wanted my school mates to know Ke li... but of coz that was not becoz she is nice... but becoz she is my uncommon friend...
and i realised that there are more ppl who reads my blog than what i actually knows... actually... i just want this blog to be a record of what i learn from Daddy.. mostly for myself.. and.. its quite upsetting when ppl around me come telling me about what i wrote in my blog, things that i din tell them personally... it is not like i dun share or something... aiya... dunno la... and i realise i get upset when ppl judge how well mr tong teach based upon how good our english are... i rmb telling mr tong before it is stressful being his student... i guess he understands... but he wants me to speak the truth, not worrying about managing interest but speaking the truth that aligns with the reality of the God who loves us... the fact is... my GP grades are not improving... the fact is... i seem to be doing worse than before... truth... it doesn't matter.... it is not about the grades... it is about my intellectual capacity growing... it is about showing more empathy and concern for people around me... it is about being able to learn from a brother like ah tong.... though it is irritating that you pay to build this relationship.. haha... but i know our siblinghood will go even beyond classes...
WOW... i know how to upload pics le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arent you guys just so impress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am impress!!!!!!!!! haha... and the first pic... me and my beloved brother yee... he is also known as uncle yee.. :)
Since i just learn this beautiful knowledge of uploading pics... haha... let me give a brief introduction of the few most significant relationship in my life now... 1st person is none other than uncle yee... his pic is already on top... 2nd... KE LI!!!
KE Li complained the other time that she lost to uncle yee... but she understands... haha...
next is dee and bing.. i realised i dun have pics with them...
you want to know the next few peeps???
Pris! We have become so close that we go and cut hair together!
Roy and Ser... My closer friends in NY....
These three peeps are my closest friend in NY... hee.. I enjoying saying grace with them... praying with them... and i just realised i forgot to pray with ROY before we go into exams hall... shall do it before econs next week and for the A's...
hee... i survived my college life partly becoz Daddy provided my with these three lovely sisters...
ok.. this is probably going to be one of the rare times that i am uploading pics on my blog... rmb how i use to say i dun like to update my life on this blog? but it is alright... it is quite cool being able to see ppl whom you love everytime you visit your own blog for some recap of lessons you learnt in life... And... Daddy is not part of this ranking... Becoz... He is my All in All... Forever and ever... Though sometimes i fail Him... I will try...
well... i probably din do very well this prelims... will study even more... for His glory...
3 comments:
CONGRATS, YOU SURVIVED =))
oh, i know why you updated your blog. you're waiting for mr "grill-birt-tay" to visit your blog, but he has already visited it, HAHA! jia you ah meng!
CLAPS! Firstly, you survived. Secondly, you learned how to upload pictures onto your blog! WOOT~ Just so pleased to know you as a friend as well. Oh wait, you should know who I am by now right? Hehe. Oh and, my hair damn ugly can. Haha. Jia you ah meng! Your blog so inspiring leh.. blog more lah.. share the love of God! =P
Good words.
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